Post: #26

Still with the same girl but starting to get urges to game other women and I do just to keep my skills sharp and maintain the inner game required to hold steady in my frame. I never close the deal though out of respect for my lady, which I have mixed feelings about but for now that's the way it is going to be. If she starts denying me sex or acting out this may change but at that point I would much rather just call it quits and have no doubt I'll be ready to.

She constantly exceeds my expectations and shows a real willingness to learn how to be subservient and do things a woman should. We have our political differences but it's become quite clear to me she's not very serious about hers and I am pretty much apolotical these days.

We've had a few interesting arguments, a few of them started while I had been drinking (and so had she, but I'm a drinker which is something I need to watch closer).

1 was about her not being allowed to go out and get drunk anymore. A few drinks are fine but unless she's with me she is not allowed to have more than a few drinks. She's not very much of a drinker anyways but from what I understand she used to like to go out with her girlfriends and get drunk. I explained to her attraction is not a choice and under the right circumstances everyone will make bad decisions and if she cares about me she will do everything in her power to minimize that. She gave in and agreed after a little while, although I think she was just railing against my authority to see if I would crack and make concessions which I did not. On a deeper level it means she values her freedom and I don't blame her but I made it clear what I expect and also made it clear that I'm willing to enforce what I tell her.

Another was that she is no longer allowed to go somewhere where I am not invited. Not ever again. This one started because she had made plans she was going to attend an all girl bonfire at her girlfriend's dad's house and she made sure to make me aware of these plans in advance. And I hate to sound like a sap but I have met most of her friends at this point and she hasn't ever given me a reason to distrust her; so I believe her. But it came time to do that and I was having a really rough night getting drunk and dealing with some of my personal issues and wanted to go with her because I didn't want to be alone. She said she would come hang out with me for a bit instead; and she did - but it would be really weird if I was invited last minute since none of the other girls were bringing their boyfriends etc etc etc whatever doesn't matter. I needed her and she not only denied me invitation but ended up going anyways (i was too drunk to hold my frame here and i regret it, this was a mistake and I'm hoping our following conversations restablished my frame). She reluctantly agreed to never deny me invitation again. If this were a girl was even the least bit suspicious of that would have been the end of it, fortunately for her I'm not. All of her stories check out as does her behaviour.

Now there is something I am concerned about and I don't know how to handle it. She's been planning a trip to Mexico with her girlfriends for a year and saving up for just as long to go. She'll be gone for a week last august, Cancoon I believe. I can't afford to go nor can I afford the time off, or else I would just go with her. I'm not comfortable with it, but I've only known her for a month now. I don't want to be unreasonable and forbid her to go, it just wouldn't be fair she has been planning this and looking forward to it for a year. She agreed she would keep her alcohol intake at a minimum and stay with her girlfriends but it's not really enough for me. Also it's notable to mention I have not met 4/6 of the people that will be accompanying her. This is one of those situations where I'm going to have to just trust her and I'm not good at that, I'm not good at trusting anyone with a vagina in a foreign country especially one with aggressive men without much to lose.

My plan is I'm going to just let her go, make it very clear I want her to keep in contact and arrange it so she ends up calling me in the evenings (say my availability is in the evenings so it doesn't sound too controlling). If she fails to keep in contact for whatever reason, I'll strongly consider leaving her. If she comes back and acts distant and is a little bit less sexually available (we fuck like 3 times a day or more, she has only denied me sex once which i described earlier and we ended up fucking anyway) I will leave her after finding out what happened, or if I can't discern it I will leave her.

I'm investing a lot into this girl but fidelity is extremely important. I got her when she was a virgin, she has never given me a reason to distrust her and she has done nothing but been a positive addition to my life. She rarely gets moody and from what I can tell will do almost anything to please me. Sometimes she is a bit stubborn and sometimes we don't agree but she always has done the right thing and as of now I don't doubt her fidelity for a second. I'm pretty proud of my frame here and my control of the situation and the ground work I've laid down for a successful LTR. What's more I am actually proud of her, as a person. I've personally thanked her father for making a good girl and that's not a joke. However, if she pulls some shit I won't hesitate to leave her. I've left girls I've liked a lot and been with for longer over less. And unfortunately that's just the way it has to be. Life is too short to not have exactly what you want and I won't make concessions when it comes to women.

Post: #27

going through a rough patch with this girl.

there has been a reoccurring issue with her blowing off our plans to go do something else. Usually with her family which I have all met at this point. I also have access to her phone so its obvious to me it's just her family and no shenanigans are going on.

before we got serious I let her know one of my requirements was that she keep her word, not be flaky, not blow me off. for the most part she's doing a good job. there's been a few times now that's really got to me. And unfortunately I'm hitting a moral delimma of sorts because it is her family and we've only known each other for 2 months. I've made it really clear that I'm family oriented and I want her to spend time with them and be a good girl. so far though on several occasions she has just fucked our plans up on a whim because her family needed some menial shit done.

1 fucked up dinner date cuz her dad needed help landscaping

2 fucked another dinner date up because her sister was going through a break up and needed her

3 fucked an adventure day up cuz her sister again

4 after a long trip she wanted to cuddle with her sister in bed instead of sleeping with me instead after not seeing me for a week. (once again have this girl on lock, no bullshit here or believe me I would be suspicious as a motherfucker). this issue got corrected but I heavily implied break up or demotion to fuckbuddy status and told her I was not sleeping alone tonight regardless as leverage which I think so ridiculous I had to even go that far. Not happy with the outcome here. pulled way too many cards

So it's kind of a moral quandary but I want my time to be respected regardless. I'm a busy dude lately and I am probably investing too much here in this girl but I legit move stuff around and make time for her. I was pretty close to breaking it off with her today because of #4 and it was entirely too much work. There's clearly a lack of respect issue going on and I don't know how to fix it. all I know how to do is be willing to walk and show it but in my experience you pull that card too many times and it's over. woman logically crave stability and emotionally want excitement it's a fine line to walk. I won't be surprised if it ends within a months time which is too bad but if I'm LTRing it I'm not settling. I have 10-15 years to fuck bad bitches and girls my age are a few short years from the wall.

Post: #28

Still with this girl. Pretty happy with her, she's really shaping up and being more respectful in almost every way. Still not quite submitting to me like I want but she's on her way and making progress.

She gives it up whenever I want and initiates herself quite a bit too. I've had sex with her every day (2+ times a day usually) since I've known her barring when we're not together for trips or whatever. It's really validating because she cums very easily and submits entirely to me during sex. She orgasms at least 3 times before I am thinking about doing the same. Got her trained pretty well with her saying "please cum in me daddy" and thanking me after every orgasm. We cum at the same time fairly often. The sex is not mind blowing but is pretty satisfying; no complaints here. And if I did complain it would be my fault anyways because I have a girl who was a virgin when she met me and is a ready and willing participant to whatever I want.

We do argue still sometimes. And every once in a while I have to pull a power move but it always gets resolved in a reasonable manner. She tests my boundaries but me being me and her being an inexperienced fairly naive girl who doesn't even know what she's doing or why - the record gets set straight and it's got to the point where even if she startes the stupid woman bullshit she cares about me enough to if she sees me get angry at her she wants to resolve it. Which is miles away from her initial strategy earlier in the relationship of being like "lets talk about it later" "lets cross that bridge when we come to it". Now it's "are you still mad"? "I don't want to leave when you are not happy with me". A little dread game goes along fucking way I'm so happy this forum taught me well.

Our last "fight"- as she says it - what I call calmly arguing was her wanting to go out clubbing with her friends till 2am after I initially tried to compromise so she came back at 11:30. I explained clubs are sexual marketplaced and she doesn't belong there. I heard every girl appeal that she could muster.

"Thats not fair" - I don't care if it's fair
"You don't trust me"? - i did until you insisted on getting dolled up and going to a modern day meat market drinking till the bars close
"What am I supposed to tell my friends" - whatever you want, but if you want this to last I suggest you speak well of me.
"I want you to come" - I'm not getting dragged to a club with 5 girls drinking and being annoying. Not happening and you know it.
"I just want to dance" - I will gladly take you dancing sweetheart
"I want to spend time with my friends"! - as long as it's not in a male strip club, a club, or going to shows dressed like a hoe; pick anything else

I eventually got her to follow my instructions of not going clubbing all. I legitimately think she didn't know any better and in her head it's all innocent fun. However I explained to her that by not accepting some basic facts she is naive: You get dressed up for attention, clubs are innately a sexual environment, your friends influence you etc. Explained some harsh red pill truths to her which she accepted but didn't like. And spun it into me wanting to protect her and I would rather her be naive and friendly and not have these things weigh her down. So I insisted next time she listen to me and not go down this road again. That went well and she thanked me for it and has been a good girl since.

I don't feel like I'm running game on this girl even though looking back - I am. I think some core game tenants have merged with my thought process and it allows me to be completely congruent in my thoughts and actions.

I have to admit if she wasn't a virgin when I met her and she had more experience I would have dropped her a while ago. There have been several times I have been openly willing to walk and would have if she didn't shape up real fucking quick. Once when I had been drinking I even told her she was replaceable - which I regretted then and do a little now but it did the trick and I meant it. The golden rule, that HEAT shit "always be willing to walk away" has served me well and it's not a forced reaction anymore it's just the harsh truth. If you are a net positive in my life you can stay, if not I take a walk.

That's the worst of it though. 90% of the time she's a really great girlfriend that cares about me, validates me, cooks for me and will do anything I request on the spot without much hesitation if any.

Virgin + intact middle class family with decent parents + decent game = easy street. This girl can't shake me I'm a fucking rock. So much more pleasant than these fucked up garden variety hoes I have experienced.


I would say to anyone with passable game and a confident outlook that wants to find some stability in a mate - go find a girl that's a virgin or close to it with a nice middle class family. It makes a world of fucking difference.

Being monogamous is hard enough, add a mentally fucked up hoe and a dude who doesn't know what he's doing and it's doomed to failure.

I have shaped this girl so much in such a short period of time. She's happier for it. I'm happier too. I get to do what I was born to do as a man - be the leader and bare the responsibility amd fruits of my actions. Shape my small part of the world to suit me and have everyone else be better off for it.

I have to admit my feelings for this girl don't run very deep. It's nothing like when I was blu pill and in love. I don't know if it will change over time or maybe this girl isn't a "perfect" fit, or if thats just some side effects of red pill rationale male thinking; but I am happy with my girl though so I'mma roll with it.

Post: #29

Broke it off with ol' girl a couple days ago. It's hitting me pretty hard, I'm trying to keep my head on straight, chin up, and looking forward.

I was the one who broke it off with her, she hit too many nerves in too short of a period of time in my life where things were getting stressful. And at the end of the day all I wanted was to come home to a sweet girl who loves and cares about me but instead I got a misbehaving inconsiderate brat. And this last time I simply didn't have the strength a man should to put her in her place with a positive spin and move forward. I just motioned to end it, and in anger she agreed. The whole time I felt like she was trying to call my bluff and waiting for me to talk her out of it, as something similar had happened before. I wasn't bluffing though. We had our break up talk I admitted my faults, although pointed out the bulk of our relationship mishaps were hers. She even agreed and was unable to tell me why she was doing some of the stuff she was doing. We went to my house grabbed her stuff that was there, then to hers to grab mine. It ended exactly where it began almost 4 months ago in her apartment. I let her know not to call me, not to text me, as it's just going to hurt both of us by doing so. I told her she was a sweet girl, i know that she'll do well for herself someday, good luck, nice knowing you, and with a brief handshake took my leave. I'm proud of the man I have become and the sincerity, intensity, and brevity of my words.

Even though it was her behavior that killed our relationship, I take most of the responsibility for the relationship coming to a end, although I attribute the rest portion of it to the rise of feminism - you-go-girlism and the influence of (single) friends and (liberal) family that were simply not conducive to what I was trying to build.

I showed her a lot of vulnerability (which contrary to popular belief I think is a good thing if you do it correctly), built an extreme amount of comfort, lead the way a man should lead. Punished bad behavior, rewarded good behavior. And treated her with a respect and kindness that is similar to how you would treat a daughter or a very close female friend. I can count on one hand the number of times I faltered, showed weakness, changed my mind or did anything feminine in her presence. I have but a few regrets.

First and foremost is that a few times I simply ran out of patience and implied I would walk (be done) if she didn't shape up real fucking quick. Around about 4 times in 3 months, which is too many times. It's effective but it fucks their heads up and destabilizes the relationship, and that's the true cost of the compliance. Even though it was true and even though I meant it I should have had the patience and discipline to get my point across another way. Large mistake that eventually costed me a relationship with a very sweet, feminine and loyal girl who was a virgin when I met her.

The 2nd large mistake I made is I mishandled an incident involving her parents, and to preface that event would not have happened if I spent more time making a better impression on her parents, which I think I handled poorly. Not for any reason in particular other than they I didn't break through their protective parental shell and show them that I'm a serious person with good intentions for their daughter. Anyway, less than 2 months in her parents told her to attend a small informal family gathering but explicitly told her not to bring me. Due to my egotistical nature I took this as disrespect and in turn I told her that I would no longer be going to her family's city and from here on out she would have to go alone. I eagerly invited them (personally) to come to my city and enjoy a night on the town on me to smooth things over but they never accepted. We also had a little fight about why she couldn't simply ask her parents that I attend during which I questioned her loyalty and told her I felt disrespected that she would not even stand up for me just a little bit to other people, which we had issues with in the past involving her friends. It seemed I simply was not a big enough priority in her life, or a strong enough figure to be respected. To be fair that shows weak character on her part but I should have framed it differently.

I could have (and tried) to work past that and mold her into the woman I wanted her to be, but due to her family and friends influence I often lost more ground in the day or two they were together than I gained in a whole weak of focusing my attentions on it. I refuse to be that piece of shit boyfriend that puts distance between a girl's family and friends, however I could have built up psychological defenses and shielding with her to make he less susceptible to their influence. And for that reason I take most of the responsibility for this relationship having failed.

I played a game were the odds were stacked against me and eventually succumbed to the pressure. Which to me means that I still have a lot of work to do on myself and need to become a better man. Which fortunately I am motivated and capable of doing.

Women are so common. Every day I have decent interactions with women who I would fuck without question. But women that come from a decent background, have good moral fiber, and aren't promiscuous and damaged; those women are rare. And in the liberal infested degenerate ridden PNW 2nd tier city I reside in I doubt I will find another for a while. For that reason I'm taking this loss pretty hard. I'll be fine though, all I can do is carry on

Post: #30

My mother is living with me now, had to pull her out of an abusive situation with her ex boyfriend. Agreed she could stay at my house under my rules rent free till she got on her feet. Kind of fucking with my head in terms of being able to pull girls to my house. A few friends suggested that women really wouldn't mind if I told them the truth, which I outlined above. I might even get respect for it, somehow I don't think so though.

Banged an old friend last night. Pulled myself out of a rut kicking and screaming. Managed to be entertaining, charming, and quite accommodating. Gave her a few good Os and passed right the fuck out. Drove her to her college class in the morning.

Then of course ol' girl has to text me this shit

"Hey I was going to call you but sometimes your phone doesn't get my calls. [this is actually true, i confirmed this a few times myself, not just girl bullshit] I really need to meet with you to talk about some things and give your some of your stuff. Would that be okay with you? I feel like there is some stuff I haven't said to you and it's been eating at me. If you don't want to do that I get it but I just care about you a lot and this has been really really hard for me".

Sounds like she's pretty sorry for not being up to par. I called her and arranged a meeting, although for the first time in a while I'm unsure of my own intentions. Probably a 60/40 shot at her apologizing and thanking me for treating her so well or her trying to blame everything on me; respectively. Women, who knows what her friends have been telling her or how hard her hamster has been spinning. All i know is I was good to her and acted like a man, showed a lot of strength, caring, and skill in dealing with her. Obviously not enough, but it was an effort that even I; myself admires.

On one hand I want to push her along, give her some closure and let her move on and give her some pointers on how to be happy with the next man she finds. My gut and my heart know this is the right thing to do.

On the other I miss her a great deal, almost to the point of being sick. But i know history will just repeat itself. She won't change without a huge time investment and large emotional strain on me, and there's nothing I can or even want to do about her friends and family incepting stupid ideas in her head. Because at the end of the day they will be for her, and I probably won't if she fucks up and pisses me off too much. I'm not willing to put distance between her and her family, some of her friends I couldn't care less about because their stupid young dumb hoes. Girls rarely have true friends and her definitely don't fit that bill.

Fuck me

Post: #31

Insert .gif of someone shaking their head at you.

Go back and read this thread from the beginning OP.

Post: #32

Alright, I did. What are you trying to say?

Ol' girl came over, I gave her closure. She was a wreck and didn't know what to do. Told her her options were to shape up and try to convince me she could do better or to give it up and start the healing process. She so clearly wanted to get back with me but kept talking herself out of it. I imagine she already told her friends and family it was over for good and had too much pride to get back in it with me. We talked about all the ways it wouldn't work and how she should cope with it. I told her she was probably making a mistake and she agreed but that's the way it's going to be. It got kind annoying after a while and i just told her to leave. Last time i'll ever see that girl.

Post: #33

It took about a week's worth of thinking about but I now realize how I set the previous relationship up for failure. Had the girl's background been that of a traditional conservative woman it could have played out differently. However, i knew going in that was not the case. My mistakes were amplified by the cavernous walls of feminism and liberal upbringing that she was brought up in, then further embedded by her family and friends. Any sign of weakness or instability only confirmed what the liberal echo chamber of the west - plus her friends and family were already shouting. Despite her innate need for a masculine man in her life that treated her like a man should treat a woman; each step forward in that direction was negated completely by the any mistake, then 3 steps back when she bitched to her friends and family.

Women have a herd mentality that is completely inseparable from their own identity. The only option to keep a girl like the one I had would have been to separate her from her herd (impractical, immoral, and difficult - the option of weak men which has become obsolete with the invention of modern technology); or to be a such a shining example of a masculine power that it couldn't not make sense to be with a man like me. That's where my failures lie. I'm not yet strong enough of a man to be the conqueror, leader, and spokesman of my own world to defy the odds and forge an prosperous reality for myself and another person; and then pave the way for a family.

And that's my takeaway for the last 4 months of my life. The forces of the world were against me and I lost not because I rolled the dice, but because I failed to rise to the occasion. Through my failures I will forge more potent successes. Through weaknesses in my ability, lack of fortitude, or lack of wisdom I have no doubt I lost a quality woman and I regret that. But there's no point in folding; missing - trying to get back what was. That's for men who's will has been broken, or their potential reached by their ability - and no doubt should one of those scenarios play out, i will be there with those men and become the weak willed or impotent man I despise. Until then I'll choose to forge my own future.

There's a girl I'm friends with who's going to school in my area. There's no future in it - she has a boyfriend back home where she's from that she's loyal to and they have an agreement to fuck other people; whatever - but she's been there with me every time I call. She submits to my beck and call without fail and as much hesitation as you would expect from a woman. I've been banging her out on the regular in-between work and other duties, it's been pretty fun. She's complete water and malleability while at the same time being a very intelligent girl (beats me at chess every 3rd game or so and going for a master's in O-chem), and at times when I'm drunk or upset she'll agree with me despite what some (most western women) would consider sexist undertones. I wonder if it's because of her intelligence, or her hardships, her lack of numerous sexual partners (2 including me, and I believe her), or my strength that she's so agreeable. At this point in my life I'd have to say it's a combination of all of those things. Still have a lot to learn and should I hold myself accountable and grow I think I'll get to where I want to be.

Post: #34

Been banging that girl out pretty regularly. While she does provide stimulating conversation sometimes she lacks a certain amount of wisdom to have deep fulfilling conversation with; then i get bored turn on some porn and get to fucking. It's kind of weird, she seems just happy to be in my presence. Though she's resolved to not catch feelings and I don't think I even can for her. So whatever, that's nice i guess.

Did some half-assed approaches today, none worth noting. I'm pretty rusty at it. There's something about my presence that's too unnerving or unattractive for most girls when I meet them in person. I'm kind of intense as a person and really nothing remarkable physically as far as facial aesthetics go. Teeth are a little fucked up too. So to attract a girl from an approach and really hook her I need to disarm them, catch their intrigue, build comfort, and hook with some basic attraction building ques really fast. And admittedly I'm pretty awful at it.

One thing I've noticed is that girls from online my fuck close rate is pretty stupid. It's like 50%+ if I get as far as an in-person meeting. But just number closes from in-person approaches are less than 5%. Doing something wrong here. I like the way that I appear and I'm content with it as far as fashion goes. Though it's more street-leaning than most dudes in my area that combined with a pretty intense/overwhelming attitude and lack of any significantly advantageous facial aesthetics lends itself to a pretty shitty approach; at least anything I'm capable of naturally.

It's also been a while since I've had sex with anyone new. So with that in mind I'm going to go ahead and resolve to fuck a new girl above a 6 without using any online tactics. The first step for me here and the thing I'm going to work on is disarming women on initial approach and just talking - just talking about something I think is fun or and entertaining and I'm not going to intentionally escalate the interaction. If I can get about 10 of those that go well - even if they lead to nothing I think I'll be well on my way to improving my approach skills. Probably log some of the really good or really bad ones here.

Post: #35

So, how's Santa Barbara?

Or is it Eugene?

I'm not totally sure what your issue is, but I'm kind of curious how someone your height is self ranked so low. Are you just trying to not oversell on here, or is your face a little off?

Post: #36

Smart guy. You know the west coast well. Pm me if you're curious but I'd appreciate it if you didn't completely out me on the forum. I realize i'm probably being too overt anyway.

Bad teeth, meh face. Brings SMV down a little bit. Until I save enough dough it's something I'm stuck with. Also it's worth noting that I'm the opposite of a natural. When I was younger I was flat out retarded with girls and people in general, less so now but sometimes old idiosyncrasies still fuck things up. My self ranking is based on how I see the world, how the world interacts with me, and how I observe other interactions. So as of right now I see myself as a functional 6 or so. Status, looks, and wealth all considered.

Had a pretty funny Tinder experience last night. Opened a girl with "I was going to use a pun based on your name but lets just get to the point. Wanna smoke crack and have unprotected sex?". Which in hindsight was probably too fucking Meta and fucked my shit up later but the girl turned out to be pretty smart. She's probably a 6.5 or so. Some Banter, a number, and a bottle of champagne later I'm in her bed. I escalated the best I could with all kino, comfort building and normal bullshit I could but every hour or so this girl would spout the usual "I'm not going to have sex with you" shit. Brushed it off, agreed and amplified as good as my drunk ass could muster, as far as I'm concerned I handled well using strategies I've used before that worked. So anyway I'm in her bed, half naked next to her. Shes fully clothed. We start spooning, and my hands move down to the girls vag. Unshaven, I couldn't tell how wet she was cuz she moved my hand and pulled the same old bullshit "not having sex with you". My fucking drunk ass was like "well I'm not going to rape you" picked up my clothes gathered my shit told her to have a nice life and left. In my head at the time I was pretty frustrated and was just trying to call her bluff, well she was unwavering and just let me leave. My drunk game is fucking trash, sober I probably would have closed but I royally fucked that one up. She either had some serious hangups (something about a dead trainhopping boyfriend) or this bitch was just not attracted to me physically and I ran some bad game. I'm gonna go with the latter. Hoe was too smart for her own good and instead of tapping into her emotions I played it too logically. I sent her kind of a beta simpy text in the morning to try to figure it out if nothing else after last night's final text exchange which

Her: Hopefully you got home safe. I had a good time with you. Too bad we cant be friends

Me: Babygirl when you're ready to have a friend let me know

Me: Hey, bit drunk last night. Was kind of a dick. Sorry for that, but when you're down to have some fun conversation and fuck get at me. I go to bed with all my female friends got offended or whatever when that didn't happen. Anyway it's all good we're all flawed humans and shit

Her: Too bad. I had fun hanging out but I'm not going to fuck you.

Me: It's all good sweetheart some shit just doesn't work.

Still putting the pieces together of how I fucked that one up. Combination of mediocre game and her being too smart and fucked in the head is the best I can come up with, and it's probably better it didn't happen if that's the case.

Regular plate is coming by today if I can cure my hangover and( tomorrow if I can't) to clean my house, fuck, and watch anime and generally have fun. Once again I should get off the online bullshit and focus on real life but I'm having trouble because Tindr is like fish in a barrel and actually approaching successfully and consistently is like climbing a mountain. Gonna work on my inner game and make it happen.

Post: #37

19 year old girl that I've been fucking and semi-friends with for a while came over and cleaned my (pretty grimy) house. Had some decent sex at various times she was over. Something the ex-gf probably should have done a long time ago, this girl did it without hesitation. I was trying my best during the whole thing but apparently despite my best efforts couldn't conceal some level of mopiness or sadness or whatever. She's a pretty submissive, observant, and smart girl; on the drive back she asked me if I was mad at her. I just told her I was tired from taking her out to the movies the night prior and hadn't got much sleep after she passed out - which was mostly true and I was not mad at her in the slightest. Some time during the day after I thanked her for cleaning she said I seemed a little down and she hoped that her cleaning would cheer me up and make me feel better. Both of those things made me feel pretty awful, I'm not being the best version of myself I can be. I think because I've been putting off dealing with some left over feelings from the last ltr.

I'm going to take a week long hiatus from seeing and trying to fuck any girls. Feelings from the recent breakup are effecting my interactions with women and interestingly enough some of my acquaintances and work. I can't have that, I have things I've built and worked very hard for that need to be maintained - to show weakness; real weakness is going to fuck them up. It's disappointing that I'm not as good at hiding my feelings (or just not having them) as I want to be so I need to work on some of that

Post: #38

Got back with ol' girl. Giving it a 2nd try. I'm a lonely bastard. I went over it and went over it but she's a good woman, better than most girls I meet. Figured it was worth a 2nd shot. She hasn't slept with anyone else, been on a date or kissed a man since we broke up. So that's that, I'll still try.

To make it work I have to correct some issues and pretty quickly or else this attempt is for nothing. I glossed over the facts in my head that women are not like men, they have serious herd mentality and need the approval of their friends/family for a relationship to work. I didn't put a whole lot of effort into winning them over and was pretty cavalier about even caring. That caused some issues. Mainly due to the fact O'm my own man that makes my own rules in life and while approval of my people is nice it's not strictly necessary. It's clear to me this girl loves me and cares a lot about me. But her support network/herd takes priority and influences her. Which to an extent is fair, to which extent O'm unsure. So if I want to keep her and avoid fights she has to have the approval of her family at the very least. Working on making that happen now, it shouldn't be too hard.

Post: #39

Gave it a 2nd try, didn't work. I'm going to figure out why and then off to slutmonger for a little while until I get my head straight.

Post: #40

Ol girl dropped a letter off at my apartment when I wasn't there. I'm a little drunk and can't decipher the womanese. Just got back from a Tindr date that ended being a bust. Tindr girl was smart as fuck (neuroscientist) and I engaged with her intellectually instead of emotionally, it was stimulated but I would have rather banged her. Forgot most of my game and just straight up frontal lobed this girl, she thinks I'm really intelligent but doesn't want to bang me. What does that make me, dumb as fuck right?

Gonna post ol' girl's letter, maybe someone here can interpret it despite the context not being all there.

Quote:Eugenics,
I could write pages to you but at this point I don't think you want to h ear it. I'm just so sorry for how everything happened. I know that probably doesn't mean anything to you but I feel awful about everything and I'm so sorry that you didn't expect it [she broke up with me in the middle of the night when I thought things were gravvy] and that I've destroyed your trust. You should never do that to someone who means a lot to you. It all happened so quickly and I regret that a lot because you deserve more respect than that. I know your heart so well and I could feel how much you loved and cared for me everyday. I saw how much you did for me and I know you did not deserve to be treated like that at all. I wish i could have done better by you. I'm sick thinking about how you're hurting and how you don't understand why that happened. I don't think I can help you understand how I feel. All of my issues and hesitations were stuff you wanted to work on but i just felt like it wasn't fair to either of us to change these aspects and dreams about ourselves and we just won't see that argument in the same way. I know know you want to have a family more than anythingelse and I just can't feel okay with you changing your mind because you should have that, and I don't see me ever changing my mind either. I know that couples stay together for years hoping the other will their mind but then nobody does that's a scary thought. There were also things I was unhappy about, both with you and myself. I started getting emotionally dependent on you again and that's not healthy. You wanted more control than I was willing to give up, and I saw that, to make it work, it was necessary for me to compromise on things I just wasn't willing to comprimise on. I should have never made any promises or commitments to you before I know exactly how I was feeling because that just put us so deep I'm disappointed in myself and I'm sorry I let you down. But I truly do have so much love for you whether you believe that or not. I also should have never let anybody else impact me so drastically during our relationship, that was so wrong. I know you were just trying to love me and make it work. You have so much love to give and I know you'll find a good girl to give it to. Thank you for all the good times, experiences and memories that I'm not going to forget, you're always going to be really special to me, even if you hate me forever. I don't expect you to respond or anything because I know how hurt and upset you are. I just wanted you to know I'm heart broken and so sorry

Love, ol' girl

All i got from that is that she wasn't attracted to me enough to keep going. I probably acted too beta and turned her off. Logically; she knows she should love me. Emotionally, she has withdrawn apologetically. I guess even in a serious LTR with a virgin I shouldn't ever show weakness and vulnerability. Hard red pill lesson learned. I can't believe I regressed to blue pill behaviour. Pff, what did I expect, AWALT.

Next up, Tindr neuroscientist girl text log after a date. We clicked in a weird way and I wanted to have sex on her but was too apathetic to pull all the typical game moves, no kino, hug close, bullshit. I'm disappointed in myself because I know better but I just didn't do what I have learned after these some years.

Me: Hopeyou made it to you mice safe. Had fun talking with you
girl: You too! Injection went well, now to talk the poor dog, he's been in all day
Me: Poor guy, I'm sure he'll be excited. I'm downt o see you again, let me know when you have a day off
girl: To be honest, I'll have to think about it for a bit. I enjoyed your company and think you're cool to hang out with, but I'm pretty weary of highly intelligent guys interested in social manipulation and just generally slow to trust. Hope it's okay if I take a day or two and get back to you!
Me: Well if it suits you better we can could stop playing social games and be honest with each other but rarely does either side appreciate it too early on
girl: I'm fine with that if you are
Me:I always am. But as a show of good faith in complete brutal honesty you have to tell me what you think about me. Don't be scared, we're strangers and I have more to lose
girl:What I said was pretty honest! (working on that as well as answering my phone). Let's see, I can elaborate. I thought you were clearly very intelligent and did not appear insecure about your intelligence which is rare and awesome. I worry based on your conversation topics that you may have negative relationship with women... no indication of this yet, but it's something I'm always weary of because I see it so often in men. I thought you were charming and that honestly concerns me.... I don't want to have to be on guard all the time,. I've spent a lot of my life there and I wasn't a place/person I can relax around. Umm, and I worry we may not have very much in common beyond what we've already discussed. How's that?
Me:That's nice of you. It takes a lot of courage for someone to be direct in this context, and I hope you don't mind me saying especially women. Guess it's my turn
girl:Yep, I'm ready.
Me:I'm of the opinion you don't know someone until you know what they want. I didn't understand what you wanted from that interaction, and I'm usually good at it. You're very clearly intelligent and on a good path in life and have stuff going for you. We don't have much in common but I thought it was sweet when you tried to qualify yourself. Not sure how I'd fit into your life. I think you're attractive, the fact that you're short and smart turns me on. I want to talk to you more.
girl: Well I'm pretty instinctive person. I'm looking for a strong undeniable connection...I've only experienced it a couple times in my life and honestly didn't here. But I did feel an intellectual connection and am interested in exploring that. I think. Does that clarify at all.
Me: Yep
Me: I need fuckbuddies and/or a lover. Sounds like I'm dq'd. But it's all good sweetheart that's just how things go.
girl: Being unsure about it makes me think I'll probably shy away in the long run and I certainly don't want to waste your time. Good luck and I hope you find what you're looking for.
Me: You too!
girl:Thanks
Me: If you want to have drinks and BS on a slow day I'm down. Don't be shy
girl: Okay, that sounds great. If the snowpack is low, I'll hit you up next weekend.
fin

God dammit guys. I feel like a goddamn autist typing all this shit out. It's so fucking obvious to me what actually happened with both of these interactions.

Ol' girl LTR - Built too much comfort and didn't maintain attraction. I'm a weird particular asshole and that all shined through. She logically wants to love me but emotionally doesn't feel it

Tindr girl, she thought I was charming and fun but I didn't build on the attraction at all and it just went fucking bad. She wants to friendzone me because she can't imagine fucking me.

God dammit guys, can I get a critique please. I feel like I've forgot everything I've ever learned about women.

Post: #41

Taken a quick look at this thread since I often enjoy your posts.

Mate, here's my honest take (with a fair amount of projection, but projection that happens to be true). No hate, you often make solid posts and sound like you'd be fun to game with:

I might be wrong, but for two pages of posts, I'm not seeing many new approaches.

You're spending an inordinate amount of time on a small number of girls.

This threads been open for six months--how many girls have you actually approached in that time?

Inordinate amount of time on the same few girls means ==> relying too much on a small number of prospects (oneitis/small-n-itis).

Separately, but relatedly, is the way you've approached e.g. neuroscientist girl.

In the moment, you hamstered (consciously or otherwise) that she was special and the rules didn't apply to her, so you didn't create any M-F tension and had an intellectual pussy-drying discussion. You did this because you pedestalised her and were scared of losing her (scarcity mindset).

In that text log, you're spilling your guts to her as if sharing your soul with her will get her to like you. This is 101 level shit, bro.

So there's two separate but related issues here, the first being staying in the comfort zone of the same small number of girls and not generating more new prospects. And the second being reverting to blue pill/nice guy/anti-game chat rather than game. You should know better.

They're related because they both fundamentally come from the same problem: Refusing to take the leap of faith and actually believe in, or at least try, game/red pill.

It doesn't matter how many posts you make on the forum with good understanding of theory if you revert to blue pill / 'beta' behaviour in the field.

(Neuroscientist girl basically told you as much when she said she was looking for a 'strong instinctive connection'--she wants tingles, not an academic discussion.)

I haven't read the whole thread carefully, but here's my advice:

You need to reset and cut the temptations to reverting to blue pill actions or wallowing.

Re. "ol' girl" (and stop calling her that, even in your head): Tell her not to contact you again, then delete her contact details.

Forget neuroscientist girl and any other girl who has rejected you. Be honest that you're starting from scratch since those are dead leads, and you can only move on by truly severing them.

Sign up for the no-contact thread regarding "ol' girl" and any past prospects who rejected you. Report there if they contact you (even if you manage not to contact them; positive reinforcement is good when you do the right thing) or if you contact them (to get your ass back on the wagon).

No online--in person approaches/social circle only.

If your mother is still living with you, give her a deadline (e.g. four weeks) and let us know to hold you accountable to enforcing it. Remind her after three weeks and be prepared to kick her and/or her stuff out if she isn't out by four.

She's old enough that she should know better than to be relying on her son due to getting herself involved in ex-bf drama--seriously, that's some schoolgirl shit, and the fact she's never been married or divorced is a red flag for her being a hugely negative influence on you as a man, let alone with her living with you.

Probably whatever underlying issues you have with women (and I say that literally, not trying to shame you--we all have issues) are largely due to your mother's influence and (probably relatedly) a lack of good male example.

Getting your mother out and not polluting your life by her continual presence is a higher priority than any given girl.

Take it from my personal experience, at the point you're at in your early twenties, with a mother like (my gut tells me) you have, you need to get her out, and probably should limit contact for your own sanity until you have your shit together, at the very least.

(I could be off base here in which case I apologise--not looking to insult your momma, just know all too well how they can fuck us up...)

But you should still be approaching in the meantime, and I'll give you major props if you shag a girl at yours while your mother's there!

You just need to actually put all your red pill knowledge into action.

The forum's here for you if you need advice or reassurance putting this into practice.

Well done for acknowledging you're lost and asking for help.

Peace

Perspicacity

Post: #42

There's definitely some truth in what you're saying and I see it myself. I'm getting to the point where I'm pretty fluent in girl language, I definitely discerned that about neuroscienctist girl, that immediately clicked in my head "lack of tingles". I realize my mistake there and it was in my post. No kino, no flirty talk. I probably did assign her too much value in my head and I broke a lot of game rules during that text conversation. Our conversations were way too cerebral to be sexy, and while although I do enjoy that a lot because I rarely find an intelligent woman that I also want to bang I didn't do my part to add fire to the flame of attraction, I actually neglected it entirely. We later made tentative plans to come over to my house Saturday to play chess and drink wine. Do I think chess is going to get her wet? Fuck no but I do know this time I'll actually try to fuck her instead of having intelligent conversation. Besides, I enjoy chess a lot, wine a lot, and women a lot. The way I see it is I can't lose that one even though it's not the most effective way to game a girl, at least I'll have fun. Anyway we'll see how that goes and if I have better leads or more fun plans I'll ditch it, no shame about that.

Then there's ol' girl, I have forum names for girls that I'm seeing, it helps me reference them later and hopefully anyone that's reading it'll be easier to follow along. I'm sure that one sounds lame but it is what it is. I don't call her that in my head though. Anyway that's a mess I'm committed to no contact with her, that's over. I got back with her that time because I thought she was a quality woman worth keeping around but I was delusional. She managed to break my delusions fairly easily and I have absolutely no desire to go back to that. While she had her qualities she had a lot of flaws that were impossible for me to navigate around or change. The "why"s and "how"s and all that were initially difficult to discern, they aren't now. I make mistakes, I'm human but 90% of the time I believe I made the right moves and stayed congruent with what I wanted vs how reality works, I have very few regrets about the whole relationship in terms of my behavior and in the end she showed me she wasn't the woman I wanted to stay with. I actually feel bad for her, I know she's a woman and she'll get over it quickly but that was her first love, sex, and relationship experience. I know it was good for her and the turmoil we went through was nothing compared to the harsh reality of the world that she'll realize after dating for a couple years. That's that I don't care to revisit it.

You're pretty much right on most accounts regarding my mother. Except a few, she was married to my father until I was 12ish and I luckily did have a strong male in my life for a long time - father. But you're right she's not been a good influence (thankfully not influential anymore in my life) and our relationship has been rocky and bad, she's not the greatest person in the world. I've been showing her apartments, sounds like she'll be out soon, i'm pushing her in that direction. I wouldn't be so hasty to make my mother homeless but I have been pretty strict with her on getting her to find a place and not letting her interfere with my personal life. I've given her the last get out of jail free card I'll ever give her despite her being a less-than-great mom. She's done the same for me once before but was quick to drop it when it became inconvenient. I don't intend on being any different which may sound a little cold but she had her time to fuck around and live life it's mine now.


I do know better than regressing into blue pill beta behavior and admittedly I have been doing it more than I would like. That's really what I'm struggling with here. Just have to pound into my head that no girl is special and be more pragmatic and less romantic. My notch count this past year was around +14 a few from daygame and most from online and I think 1 social circle fluke. My approach skills are really weak and I'm not doing social circle game for reasons I'd rather not get into here. I know it's kind of some sucker shit but I'd rather have a few quality girls around or 1 exclusive LTR. That's what I actually want not something I've confined myself to due to lack of options. I like any other man like fucking a bunch of different woman but I thoroughly enjoy the polarized submissive/dominant relationships I have with woman, that's what really gets me off. Having a submissive woman down to come fuck and act right before/during/after sex, especially after a long day of stressful work. I'll take that over fucking a new annoying slut every night and I'll take that every time. But that's not an excuse for some beta ass shit I've been doing lately, I'm clearly putting way too much value into women. It's a sunk cost fallacy and I need to get over it like I have in the past by realizing women are essentially interchangeable, there's a new one right around the corner and the second they cause more trouble than joy they give me they're gone.

My approach game is trash and I don't do it nearly as often as I should. I make it a point to talk to at least 1 random female a day but it's typically indirect and doesn't go anywhere. So I need to grow a pair in that arena for sure.

I appreciate your response, it's made me re-realize some stuff about myself. If you're ever in the PNW hit me up we'll go out on the town.

Post: #43

Banged two new girls this last week. Both from online. 1 was married, a first for me. I hit it raw and busted in her lol. Got her to ditch the hubby a few times and come straight over to peel her clothes off, get smashed and leave without talking too much. Daddy/sub dynamic is pretty powerful but I get tired of it eventually. It's work. Last time I hit it she texted me a thank you text after, she's pretty greatful for the good dick. Probably see her again after the holidays.

Other was a bit older than me but had a banging body. I could tell she was a dime when she was my age. Probably a high 6 or low 7 now. She stayed the night and wanted to talk forever. I eventually tired of her company and let her know I had stuff to do and got her to leave. Not gonna hit it again, don't like the fact she's a decade older than me and has an annoying attitude.

My sheets are fucking filthy right now.

19 year old that cleaned my house that one time will be back on the 8th. Probably hit it straight away. Want to get her on BC so I can hit it raw more often. Gonna try to get her to clean some too.

It's kind of fucked up but all I can think of post-nut is my ex. It's not good though it's some hateful ass shit. I fantasize about fucking her friends and seducing her sister. If I ever get the chance I probably will. On one hand I don't think shedeserves it on the other I don't really care, she fucked my shit up but only cuz I let her.

Been doing a lot of approaches. A lot of women are outright hostile to me, no success there. Again, I'm a little too aggressive and my style is too street for the area I live in. But what's really been getting me is once and a while I run into a mean ass redhead with attitude for days. Something about that is driving me crazy. I'm gonna bag one of em one of these days.

Merry Christmas

Post: #44

Respectfully, Eugenics, have you had any professional help or counseling about the drugs and alcohol? I don't mean your friends, or any "self-help" program. I have seen far greater men than you or I will ever be, slowly go down a grim road that they didn't know was negatively impacting the things they do and interactions with people until they got off that road long enough to look back.

Post: #45

Thanks for being respectful. No I haven't, to answer your question directly.

I have had serious drug use problems since I was young, but most of those demons have been dealt with and conquered. I had a $100 a day H habit when i was around 19, pulled myself out of it on my own volition. Haven't looked back. I flirted with cocaine for a long time, now only do it if it's free, come to think of it I turn down a lot of free coke, more than anybody I know. Had a serious benzodiazepine addiction from 19-21 or so, quit responsibly and ironically enough none of my doctors knew anything ashton manual or how to get someone off them at that time.

I'm down to about 1-2 drinks a day except on weekends but have been drinking more lately and admittedly need to pull that back a bit for my health and sanity. I'd classify that as a medium level problem, a few women I've been with said they don't like me when I'm drunk but there hasn't be any major negative incidents as of late, but they do happen from time to time. Not like domestic violence bad, I'm just a grade-A asshole when I've had too much to drink and someone rubs me the wrong way. I've been seriously considering sobering up for at least 6 months. I did it for a year about 2 years ago and it was a pretty positive thing in my life.

Post: #46

After the comment from Kwisatz I've put myself on a strict 1 drink max every 6 hours. Also started trying to get back into my routine of working out. I want to get cut up again, current physique is passable but not impressive. Going for abs by summer.

At work today I had the uh privilege (god damn a room full of women is insufferable sometimes) of hanging out in a room with 3 young girls and a 30+YO (which is just off my radar entirely I forgot she exists sometimes) - 18(A) - 19(B) - 24© for about 6 hours today. Me and C are cool, I know her boyfriend fairly well and respect the two of them enough not to ever put any moves on her plus it's work you know, i'm not that stupid. Also A&B are close friends outside of work. C is their boss (thankfully not mine). A and me butt-heads constantly but she's an airhead so I shut her down every time -admittedly without much tact. B gives me quite a bit of attention as she does everyone and is by far the hottest. I wrote Bs attention off a while ago and stopped showing her any interest at all because I simply assume she's an especially social creature and work is work so I shouldn't fuck with it anyway. Oddly enough after spending some time in a room with all of them and being my usual self my ears perked up a little bit and started noticing IOIs from B but only after I shut As bullshit down a few times. Won't go anywhere, A & B are incredibly vapid promiscuous festival/rave/faux-hippie girls if you know the type, and that's the farthest thing from my type that exists in this world and the last dude even got to 2nd base with any of these girls was terminated on the spot. I could probably survive that scrape with a decent hit to my status but that's not a good play. I am going to try to leverage my status and perceived interest from B to meet some of their friends however. It's really fucking hard to find a common denominator with these vapid bitches but I'm going to trudge through it. I'll see how that goes, I know they have hot friends.

Apps/online shit yielded a few leads after sending some low investment openers. Pretty handily fucked them both up by being too sexually aggressive too early on. Did the absolute bare minimum to build comfort, didn't get them very invested (if at all) and just burnt them resulting in ghosting. I'm too tired to type out the full interaction but in summery -

1. Opened, got her interested, built comfort, got her number. Texted her, built more comfort, tried to turn the conversation sexual out of left field by using my go-to "are you a good girl [name]"? Aaand ghost. Didn't segway into it because I just didn't have any patience. I know better.

2. This was Tindr, basically same deal. Only with this one she was pretty down but I invited her over to dblrink champagne and watch [shared interest show], didn't leave her with enough plausible deniability as this was 12:30 at night. She sounded interested after the invite "My friends left early and I have a bunch of champagne with no cork.Come join me" (which was true, if that means anything, and I'm not drinking much now). She replied with "haha I can't lie that does sound tempting". Then I went off on a separate conversation string about comedy and what we both like - building a little rapport. Then "Let me get your number so I can try to convince you to come over and watch [shared interest show] and drink this champagne". aand ghost. Again, lazy, impatient, didn't segway properly.

2 decent leads blown because I was being lazy and impatient. Got to put the work in, lesson learned.

Did two approaches today when out and about. Resulting in nothing. My eyes are getting droopy now not going to even post them as they weren't very memorable anyway. I want to grind approaches a bit more, I thought I was fearless but as it turns out I'm not as comfortable with it as I'd like.

Girl I banged that is attached never texted me back after a Merry Christmas text, probably feeling guilty after watching her kids open Christmas presents with the attachment. I fully suspect she'll hit me up next week but I'm not pushing shit with this one, playing with fire as it is. Older bitch is out of town even if I caved and wanted to fuck her again. Other prospects out of town as well. Fuck December. Two years in a row a (mini)-LTR has ended just before the holiday season which I hate anyway. I'll be happy when new years comes around, it's looking like I'm an incel this week. First time in a while, I'll savor it.

Post: #47

Hey, Man... I just read 95% of this "Game Log" (had to skim a couple of the parts that were a little depressing).

Much respect to you for airing out all of this.

I'm not sure what you're trying to accomplish here, though. It started out with Game and, by the end of two pages of heart-wrenching posts, it seems like you're just lonely and ready for an LTR, regardless how detrimental it is.

Why don't you use your Red Pill knowledge to lock down one good chick and focus on keeping her--that seems to be what you're looking for--not Gaming 4's and 5's just because you're alone and you think that will fill that void?

I can totally relate to your neuroscientist story. I had an LTR with an ophthalmologist, MENSA, 180 IQ chick who I could talk to for hours and hours at any given time and never get bored, but she was batshit crazy and that shit got old quick.

Put your head back to the grindstone and seek what you want, not what you can just get.

And remember, desperation is a stinky cologne.

Post: #48

My primary goal at this point is to recover emotionally from the last failed LTR. She restored some old hope of actually meeting a decent woman. Something I forgot I wanted, it didnt work out granted but theyre out there somwhere. Meanwhile I'm just running through hoes. Good chicks are few and far between here. I don't get involved in exclusive relationships unless I can see it going the distance. The vast majority of women DQ themselves within an hour of speaking. It's very liberal here. The best women I've found are crypto-conservative - raised traditional but influenced by the environment and think they're feminists or very liberal. Less than ideal. Not talking about politics specifically just lifestyle.

There's still large gaps in my knowledge as you can probably tell and it's likely I'll have to fill them in before running a successful LTR. That and probably move. Admittedly I'm also looking in the wrong places for that good chick (online, bars, bad circles). It doesn't help that I'm giving a lot of energy to hoes, you're right. I'll think about that. And fuck me I hope I'm not banging 4s. I'm guilty of a 5 here and there but mostly 6s and some 7s. Hopefully I'm not giving off a desperate vibe, I fuck enough and am jaded enough that I don't think I am. I'll have to check myself on that though. Thanks for the advice.

Post: #49

Met a damn fine 19/yo latina off Tinder and banged it out all last night and half of today. Didn't really use much game, comfort game and good timing if anything. I think she was pretty attracted to me from minute 1. Managed to have 5 rough sex sessions, got her calling me daddy, all good. I taught her how to play chess, we watched some anime, and I made her go shoot guns with me even though she was vehemently anti-gun, took her out to this hole in the wall for 5 dollar burritos and she said it's one of the best she'd ever had. Pretty sure I hooked her good, looking forward to spinning her. Not suited for an LTR there's major red flags, drug use, slutty past (she's not overt about it but it's like reading an eye-chart for me at this point) Teaching girls new stuff is not only fun for me I think it's huge DHV. Told her to hit me up and I'd teach her how to drive since somehow she doesn't know how to do that. Even though I was out with this girl almost all day still managed to snag some work hours, good day.

Saturday girl that I'm friends with came over and played chess, drank champagne and generally had a good time. I we also watched some anime. Banged it out a couple times. I don't put any effort into her other than a good dicking and she always comes back. Been calling her my loyal sidebitch lately. Good stuff.

Girl with hubby wants to come over and get some daddy dick Thursday though it's still up in the air. We had kind of a funny text exchange today, managed to read it out loud real-time with some of my coworkers they think I'm a mac/player/douchebag depending on who you ask - I'm almost invaluable and have high status at work so I don't give a single shit what someone under or next to me thinks. Boss finds it hilariously entertaining, and I like to make people laugh at the outlandish bullshit I do all the time.

her:Hey daddy (;
me: New phone who dis
her: Who else calls you daddy?
[I'm thinking, bitch like every girl I fucking know. I told my coworkers that at one point I was banging only girls named Ashley and I had 3:1 on it being an Ashley. I joked that even if she said her name and it was Ashley I would still have no fucking clue it was. Got a few good laughs]
me: Stop playing games and ID yourself
her: [babygirls name]
Time passes
her: Is it you, daddy?
...[logistics and game as usual]...
sub/dom in the form of daddy/babygirl is so fucking strong. Dread game and being aloof is too fucking strong.

This is pretty much my limit. I can only juggle 3ish girls at a time, that or 1 serious lover which I'm still on the lookout for constantly. When I have fun girls to mess around with on my down time I'm so much happier and better adjusted person. I can tell my vibe just changes and people fuck with me hard. I magically start getting invited to shit more often and get unprovoked DHV nods/references by coworkers and friends. Girls are more attracted to me, I don't sweat the small stuff. Nothing lasts forever so I'm riding the highs and trying not to let the lows effect me. Just about over the last ex, I still think about her post nut sometimes it's weird. It'll go away with time I suppose. Also drinking less, eating better, and working out. That helps a lot.

Also shout out to Corsega and his Tinder thread, inspired me to spend a couple hours fucking with my profile and re calibrating. Paying off.

Post: #50

You should move out of Oregon.