Post: #51

I read this thread's title as "Eugenics game log." Had me wondering what eugenics game entailed....

Post: #52

I cracked this code.... Got an ex in Portland. Easy to figure out.

Post: #53

Why are you trying to put my location on the forum when I specifically noted I didn't want that to happen? Do you want a medal or pat on the back for the dox attempt or what?

Why are you adding useless shit to my log thread?

Quote:you should move out of oregon

I'm well aware that the cities in Oregon are liberal infested shitholes. Care to elaborate or add anything useful at all or are you just gonna make low-value posts that don't do anything but up your post count?

I'll take advice, I'll take criticism; that's part of the reason I write this stuff out. I don't see the point in posting useless statements with no backing and trying to reveal my location to the public though - other than fucking my game up.

Post: #54

My bad, Dude. Won't happen again. Peace....

Post: #55

It's all good man. If you want to know where I'm at PM me. Threads here get 1000s of views a week and I don't want to get doxxed by some limp wristed SJW or be put on one of those "douchebag shaming" FB pages, or have a plate find something I've wrote about her. Other than spilling my guts out here I'm a pretty private person. This is the only place I post any info about anything publicly and it's all for people to pull my coat on some game, tell me where I'm fucking up, and for me to remember where I was a year from now

Post: #56

(01-10-2018 03:11 AM)Eugenics Wrote:  It's all good man. If you want to know where I'm at PM me. Threads here get 1000s of views a week and I don't want to get doxxed by some limp wristed SJW or be put on one of those "douchebag shaming" FB pages, or have a plate find something I've wrote about her. Other than spilling my guts out here I'm a pretty private person. This is the only place I post any info about anything publicly and it's all for people to pull my coat on some game, tell me where I'm fucking up, and for me to remember where I was a year from now

I'm gonna take this to PM, because you fucked up a lot..... Just gonna give you some info, if you're interested.

Post: #57

Alright feel free man.

Post: #58

Tried to message you, but it's not working. Something wrong with my account maybe? I just noticed I've sent PM's to 2 people and they're not showing up in my "sent items."

I was just going to say, you've several things in this thread that give up your location. If you're not interested in having it "outted," you should be more careful with your posts.

Just trying to help you, Brother.

Post: #59

I think you have to check the option to get it actually put in your sent folder. Sent you a pm

You're right there's quite a few things that would give it up. I just don't it want to be easy to find on a Google search. If someone wants to be all Sherlock Holmes I'm sure they could discern where I'm at. It just grinds my gears when people take guesses to where I'm at publicly - like the fuck man we're supposed to be helping each other not revealing personal info of members that are trying to be low key.

Post: #60

Sent you a PM. Hope you got it.

Post: #61

Called cute Latina girl yesterday and asked if she wanted to have dinner. after I got off work I was a little drunk but she said she couldn't because she was going to see her dad. I couldn't tell if she was blowing me off or not, she seemed genuine. She also blew off a driving lesson I was supposed to give her today, gave another family oriented excuse - something something helping mom and grandma do laundry, lame. I try to have good faith in people but I can never take shit like this too seriously. I'd be willing to bet she found some new dick and doesn't want to fuck with your boy because she feels guilty or satisfied from that dick. I left the ball in her court at the end of the day "hmu later if you're down to kick it" she simply replied "I will ". I've probably hit it about 10 times now, I ain't pursuing her. If she re-opens me I know she's DTF, if she doesn't she'll fade off into obscurity. Since she's Latina, she has an attitude and while I enjoy putting her in her place every 15 fucking minutes, it is work. I don't value her in my life other than a fuck, I've tested her time and time again for LTR or mini-ltr like qualities and she's completely useless in that arena. Since she has a seemingly slutty and troubled past I don't have the patience or drive to teach her either. The sex is good so I'll continue to feed her good experiences and feelings if I continue to fuck with her but the relationship will not escalate beyond plate, there's nothing wrong with that.

Woke up this morning to some pretty decent (although) hungover morning sex from my loyal sidebitch. Called her over after cute latina girl refused my invitation to dinner. Took her home in the morning and went off to pick some hours up at work. She's cool, super timid and weird sometimes though but got an ass that won't quit. I think she's getting really attached to me. She sent me a picture she drew of me today with no text attached. It was a flattering picture and I could tell she spent a lot of time on it. For the first time in a while I felt a little creeped out.

It's kind of cool to experience the emotions and situations girls experience but not many men do unless they are high value. It really puts things in perspective to have a visceral experience of those situations rather than an intellectual understanding of them. What's ironic to me is that I would only experience certain things by having abundance and being high value, and through these experiences it allows me to have more experiences, and better ones. It really is a building block kind of effect.

For example up until about a year or two ago I never really got what it meant when women said some guy was "creepy". After doing a bunch of reading on this forum I realized it was basically a code word for "into me but unattractive" depending on the circumstance. And it's not like women have a high level understanding of their lexicon either or it's mean spirited but it's just the only way they know how to describe certain fairly nuanced situations.

And again a year or two ago I thought women were all extremely socially intelligent (they are) and the ploys and mechanisms they use to get what they want socially were devious plots they were consciously and meticulously executing (they're not). From all of my experiences lately unless you're speaking about the top 10% of intelligent women I just don't think that's the case. Once in a while you'll come across the rare woman who knows exactly what she's doing, utilizes leverage intelligently and with precision but for the rest of them they're just bumbling through life like most people are. Using what they have living moment to moment searching for purpose, belonging, and a strong masculine presence to guide them. Understanding this has made it easier to love women and removed a large part of my loathing for their species. A long time ago during a conversation about consciousness with a close friend of mine I asked him what he thinks of ants and how they see the world - his simple answer astounded me at the time; "biological robots". I think the same concept could be applied to women's mating/selection behavior. Without getting too Machiavellian - it's getting easier and easier for me to push their buttons and harder and harder for them to press mine.

After I got done with work married girl was blowing my phone up begging me to fuck her but he SO had the car and wanted me to come to her house. Nope, noppity nope nope nope. Ain't doing that shit. Told her to rub one out thinking of daddy and I'll get her next time. She said she wasn't going to rub one out as it's not the same as taking daddies cock and I should punish her next time I see her. I told her I would. She just replied "YES DADDY". Bitch is sprung on your boy. Poor poor sapp who married that slut, I'll never be that man.


Spent some time hanging out with my friend whos a complete fucking simp. Every time I talk to him I try to pull his coat and half of the time he even agrees with me but he just keeps making the same mistakes. He's with this girl and they break up every week. She's 10 years older than him, has 3 fucking kids and is a complete time-suck and money-suck on his life. But he goes back every time, like clockwork 3 days later. In fact this dude is so busy providing for her and her kids that he borrows money from me every 2 weeks or so. I came to visit and he was cleaning this bitches whole fucking house where he pays rent (and when they break up she kicks him out). Pulling weeds, cleaning up debris, everything. She was sitting on her ass with her sister and while I'm a good natured guy and wanted to help I was not fucking doing shit for that useless hoe. While his girl was sitting on her ass talking with her sister who I'd never met before started taking subtle jabs at me (in between savage ass jabs at my friend). My friend literally begged me not to say some stupid shit but I couldn't help myself after the 2nd or 3rd crack on me I told her she was an ugly useless bitch that was going nowhere and she should watch who she's speaking to and I did absolutely nothing to warrant that kind of obnoxious behavior. Everyone was speechless except my boys girl's sister who kept blathering on about how she didn't know what she said and didn't mean to be obnoxious. I just got up and said "yo fuck this", she again said she didn't know what she said and didn't feel like she was being rude. I just point at my boy and said "you should teach her some respect". As I was leaving I heard him say "i'm not that guy" amidst a bunch of other female blathering. All i could think was of course he's not, he sits there and lets low value females disrespect and take advantage of him so he has a shot at being denied pussy by his girl who he "loves" every other night. Poor fucking guy. I send him pictures of girls in their underwear doing my dishes, presents girls buy for me, and text exchanges when I'm proud of my game. Maybe some day he'll fucking get it, I hope for his sake he does.

I would say I can't even imagine letting a girl disrespect me like that but a few years ago I would've let that happen. Thanks to this forum I know better, shout out to everyone here that posts hard-earned wisdom daily.

Post: #62

Damn, you're racking up some numbers, Kid.

Don't be so hard on your "friend." Most guys are like that.

Post: #63

I'm just trying to maintain a harem of girls that I enjoy spending time with. Most of my bangs are repeat customers. Only at +1 for the year - the latina.

He is my friend, truly. I am hard on him because I want to see him succeed and be happy. I know that he's not happy now. I don't care what anyone says no real man is truely content being a complete simp. Getting denied pussy by a girl you pay bills for and love has to hurt somewhere deep inside. Walking around with an overweight 30 something with kids that aren't yours has to be embarrassing. Desperation can be the only way to rationalize that. He met me 3 years ago with only a backpack to my name destitute and no game or hoes to speak of. I know that he knows he can do it too if I could. You can't teach anyone who doesn't want to learn but when he asks for my help I'll give it to him. Gotta take care of my people.

Post: #64

Blew the cute latina plate. Was giving her too much attention and I think she got bored. Made myself too available to her. I would've liked a goodbye bang but she ended up ghosting/flaking after making plans with me one day last week. Too available, too much attention lowered my status in her eyes. That and probably another man. Frame was solid though, she was always respectful up until the flake. Hit her with the red heels restart text a few nights after she flaked, she said "good luck with that" i said "wrong person my bad" she said "no worries [smiley emoji]. Segued into asking where she disappeared to. "I'm at work or asleep all the time. I love my job buy it's exausting". Sure bitch, don't got time for dick, sure. Don't got time for my dick maybe. Just sent "you trying to get some dick"?. Ghost, next.

Cut off married girl. She was getting oddly attached and wasn't that hot anyway.

Started fucking with this 29 year old single mom. Thicker but cute with a nice ass. Solid frame, good game, genuinely aloof and had abundance. She texted me every day, started clinging hard. Last Sunday I woke up with loyal sidebitch in my bed, drove her home, then called single mom up telling her I wanted to hang out but had to clean my house. Of course she offered. She cleaned most my house while I drank. Banged her out after. Then she did the whole "what are we" thing. I just told her I don't date women with children and I thought she knew it was just a FWB type of thing. She cried and left. Well fuck, I actually felt bad. I never hinted at wanting more and was completely honest about our status but I did manipulate her into cleaning my house so I could bring another girl home that night to a clean pad. Texted her a beta apology saying I didn't mean to make her feel bad hope we can still be friends yadda yadda bitch repellent and went on my date. Ghost, next.

The date same day. Just fucking adorable 22 Y/O redhead. Pale, freckles, beautiful face great tits and a surprisingly good ass (although redheads get cellulite easy, bless their non-existent souls). I was supposed to cook her dinner at my pad and had already set a pretty dominant frame through text, she was already calling me daddy so I knew I had it in the bag. I had been drinking since noon that day so last minute I called and told we should have a drink at my pad first but I was taking her out. Obviously to get her familiar with my house for later and to open her up a little before we go out. Pulled some gentlemenly stilo with her like, greeted her with a kiss, opened doors for her, pulled out the chair, paid for dinner before she even saw the check, ordered for her, that shit. Believe it or not I actually like doing that but it's gotta be the time and place for it. If the girl had an attitude or I even think she won't respect it I dont. We had a great time she was all over me, barely ate any of her food, gave me the i wanna fuck you stare the whole time. I had already fucked 2 different girls that day and it allowed me to play push pull with her with a mastery I've not been capable of before. Since I really didn't give a single shit about the notch. I made her wait for it, pushed and pulled pushed and pulled. Make out, freeze. Heavy petting on the couch, "let's play a game of dominoes". She grinds on me I get up and go to the bathroom. By the time I grabbed her by the back of the neck and pushed her to my bedroom and got the dress off that I told her to wear she was soaked through her panties. Hit it 5 times between 1AM and 10AM. I came 5 times and I lost count of hers, probably little fewer than 20. Happy with my performance. I don't think shes mother of my children qualified but I'd fuck with it until she's supposed to move during summer. Nice middle class girl from the burbs here for school. Claims feminist but does everything I say and agrees with me without much pushback. Her father is from the south, as is mine. She's what I've been increasingly labeling girls like that; crypto-conservative

That's my first hat trick - Last Sunday.

Been ignoring loyal sidebitch since Sunday. Just told her I've been working a lot. Iunno, attraction is fading there but I'd like to keep her as a friend and last resort sex.

Had a weird interaction with a girl at work. Wrote about her before, she is the boss of the two younger cuter girls who work under her. I walk in and we banter as usual, I cut in on some conversation between the yoinger girls then go back to talking with their boss. Boss girl said she burnt her arm and starts kind of giving me the eyes. I reach out to touch the burn on her upper arm and say "does that hurt" she's like "oh that feels good, your fingers are cold". Then starts playing with my hand and finger by finger runs each one over her very benign and insignificant burn while looking me dead in the eyes. The whole room full of girls is looking. I smile and change the subject but it got oddly sexual very quickly. Boss girl is attractive and sexy and I like her, but not like that. It's work. And I know her boyfriend and like and respect him too. I'm not going to test those waters any more and nudge her boyfriend into dicking her down better cuz he's obviously not doing it. If that was a girl in the wild we would've been knocking boots in an hour flat.

Been fucking cute redhead since Sunday. The game gods have been generous and the stars seemed to have aligned. Took her to a little known authentic as fuck Mexican cafeteria style food spot. Latina at the register knew me, knew what I wanted and flirted with me while I ordered for cute redhead. Good, "who is this sauve motherfucker everyone seems to know" she must have thought. Took her to another little known thai spot for lunch the next day, old thai lady and one of the workers I had saw a week prior when they were drunk as shit gave me mad respect, discounted out food, again already knew what I wanted and were all around nice as fuck to me in front of her. "Who gets discounted shit like that" she must be thinking. I left a good tip. She needed something simple a shop I am friends with the owner's at and I have keys to. Took her there past business hours, helped her out with some basic shit, texted owner to let him know, all good. She asked why I had the keys "I have the keys to a lot of places" which is semi true, I have at least 2 more spots up my sleave. "why does everyone trust him" her hamster hamsters on. Taught her how to play chess, how to role a J, how to handle a gun and just have been fucking killing it with DHV. This effect had just been fucking compounding too. My friends see me with a hot chick whos hanging off of me calling me daddy and being all around a cool chick, respect, placed I'm a regular at see that and SHEs buying ME shit, respect. She sees the same, respect. It feels good. I want to keep her around but I'm afraid that's going to be my downfall. Might be getting to sweet too fast and spending too much time together. When I have a solid submissive girl that's dtf 3 times a day and has a good attitude its hard for me to care about other girls, I get complacent. Need to keep an eye on that, but I'm proud of my frame control and all the work I've put in to display DHV.

Feel like I'm just past the dunning kruger effect in game. I realize I really don't know shit, and am not even close to being Don Juan.I read posts by cats like WIA and Distant Light and it just fries my fucking brain. I have some bookmarked for repeat reading since I rarely take it all in first time. It's nice to see the rewards of all this work and study though. Hope to keep the momentum going.

Post: #65

Been steady fucking with the cute redhead. Went ahead and said fuck it to slow burning her since she's moving by summer anyway and I've almost completely disqualified her as mother of my children or marriage material. She says she's had 9 sexual partners, longest relationship is 6 months, has traveled too much, claims feminist hard. Otherwise a pleasant person to be around. I gotta say I'm having a real nice time with her though. She acts right. I fell ill with a fever and she took care of me for 2 days, basically didn't leave my side. In lieu of a nurse outfit she wore a schoolgirl outfit to cheer me up. Took my temperature, waited on me and I shit you not fed me grapes off the vine. Been fucking her 3 times a day at least, every time she cums she says "thank you daddy". When she fucks up (saying "whatever" has been a problem of hers) she begs and pleads and apologizes and gets in position for a spanking. Frame has been unshakable. Moments like that just make me so fucking happy, I owe it all to this forum.

We had a little tiff Sunday before I got sick, she got all indignant because I was ordering her around (she was just moody for whatever reason) and it escalated to a point where she got up to leave. I just said "do your thing" every time she threatened to leave. When she finally had all her stuff gathered up, coat on and was about to say goodbye she broke and wanted to talk -shit test don't even bother me anymore. Admitted she was being hormonal and moody and apologized and we made up pretty quickly. Bought me lunch after and everything.

Loyal sidebitch has been hitting me up, been blowing her off. I feel bad, she's a decent girl. She knows the score though, she has a BF in cali and it's not me.

I have this habit for dropping any and all hoes the second I have a solid girl on deck and it's not even like I feel like I owe to the girl or anything it's just a natural tendency I have. I think I'm naturally monogamous person. Don't know if it's a good thing. Women are smart, they have backup plans and a way out always. I'm trying to figure out if that would be a healthy way for me to think or not. I don't think it's masculine, but I'm unsure.

It kind of blows my mind when I think about where I was like 2 years ago. I even know having a submissive cute girl that you'd be proud to show off was possible let alone achievable. Here I am though. The final boss of this game will be finding the mother of my children, got a long way to go, but I'm enjoying the ride most the time.

Post: #66

Last couple weeks have been weird. Starting to realize how much I get around because the past 2 weeks I can't go more than 2 days without running into a previous plate or an ex. I always make eye contact but don't ever go up to say hi, and they don't either.

Things are a little rocky with the cute redhead. She's being cool most of the time. Buying groceries, keeping my house clean, does whatever I want sexually but - she's getting bitchy over small stuff and I'm getting tired of putting her in her place. I also want some fresh pussy. I'm gonna see how it goes but I think i'm gonna instigate one of our arguments and incept the idea into her head we're incompatible and have her break up with me if she doesn't stop the bitchiness. Which is a bitch move but she's pretty fragile/crazt and while I don't care a whole lot about hurting her feelings it's just going to protect me if it goes down like it was her idea. No keyed cars or weird incidents is the goal. The fact that I'm even concerned about that is a bad sign but it is what it is. Got too involved too fast.

Post: #67

I'm getting tired of cute redhead. I agreed to be exclusive and now regret it. We spend too much time together and she doesn't have what it takes to hold me. Today I realized I don't give a single shit about her at all. Though she's not a total bitch her attitude had me turned off to her. She throws her pussy at me all day every day and half the time I'd rather jerk off. I could fuck this girl in a McDonald's dumpster if I wanted. She said she would let me shit on her and meant it. Yesterday she paid a 100 dollar tab at a fancy seafood restaurant and didn't bat an eye. She checks in with me every four hours and asks what I want her to do, how I'm feeling, etc. Man I just don't give a fuck about her or this shit would flattering. This must be how girls feel when some poor chump is spending every waking moment vying for her affection but he's just not good enough. That must be how I was back in the day.

She's been giving me hickeys. I wear em, I consider it preselection. Today a girl from work commented on one, the whole time one of my bosses was listening in as he and the girl were talking before

her: Nice hickey
me : Cool huh, thank you
her: It's actually a horrible one
me : What? Why's that?
her: its just not good
me : we talking What? 1 out of 5 hickey 2 out of five hickey give me a rating
her: well how old it it?
me : a day or so
her: 1
me : aww What? A 1, come on now. Imma tell her you said that.
her: Not red enough, she didnt do a good job besides you're supposed to give someone hickey where other people can't see
me : I don't mind, women want what they can't have. It makes you more attractive
her: *she stammers* [says something about not good girls, or quality women liking that]
me : *as I walk away* just to sluts then
[Her and my boss both erupt in laughter as I walk away more pleased with myself than I should be]

Told cute redhead about some girl rating her hickey a 1. She tried her damdest to convince me to let her give me another. I told her when this one fades I'd allow her. That's game congruence, and I don't even have to think about it anymore.


In fact I find myself constantly testing her. She fails almost every time. I'm a practical man; she keeps my liquor cabinet stocked, belly full, dick satiated, and house clean. She offered to buy your boy new clothes and detail my car but I was too proud. It brings me back to Iceburg Slim; I knew when I read PIMP I just didn't have the heart for it. It upsets me even now because neither having the heart for hard pimping nor having full integrity isn't much a heart at all. I'm hating the game right now.

Everybody says "don't hate the player hate the game" and I always knew that was a chump trap. Hating the game is what chumps do when they can't figure it out or get out played. Hating the player is almost the same thing but a lot more short sighted.

I need some fresh puss and a better main bitch. I can't bring myself to cheat on this girl so these are going to be the last few weeks with her. What I gotta ask myself is will I shit on her and let her but me new jeans before slowly fading away or will I end it sooner and give her the best life advice I can and sending her on her way. I already can't sleep at night and being generous hasn't got me very far in the past.

As I'm writing this loyal side bitch just texted me and I thought of an angle to get to this other bitch I've been plotting on. Redhead snoring to my left, my favorite anime playing on the Tv. Getting a raise at work in the next two weeks and my side ventures seem like they might pay off. I probably should be happy. I think what I really want has very little to do with women more to do with myself. Having a good woman would just be a reflection of that. I feel stupid for not internalizing that old wisdom sooner.

Post: #68

Broke up with cute redhead. Didn't shit on her, let her buy me clothes and clean my house though. We had a nice little LTR-style mini-ltr for a while. I hope when I find the right good girl it will be like that for years how it was with us for only a couple months. Didn't want to deal with the constant arguments and her challenging me. I probably could have and it may have been worth it for a little longer but she is moving to LA this summer anyway and I don't want to spend the summer tied down. She cried a lot, drove off and came back twice and wanted closure. I'm really proud of my composure, she wanted to be with me so bad but she couldn't behave. Oh well, looking forward to new puss and experiences. I don't feel like writing here very much anymore I feel like a lot of my glaring issues with women have been covered and addressed and since I started posting on this forum have very little problem getting and retaining women. When I come across challenges or serious problems I'm probably just going to make a new thread. If anyone read it thank you for reading my venting and internal dialogue

Post: #69

Since it's in the same vein and I don't feel like starting a new thread -

I've been struggling a lot lately with finding a solid LTR. I'm at a point in my life where it's something I really want, I want to find a girl worthy of me and all the benefits that come with it and I want to move that into having children and starting a family. I'm a pretty handy person, mature, great friends, has meaning and purpose in my life. My career is taking off, my business skills are getting sharp, and I've become friends with a large part of my cities business network. I still have a lot of work to do on myself but I'm proud of who I've become especially considering that not too long ago (4 years) I was a derelict piece of shit going from state to state backpacking, living on the streets, having nothing and being nothing. Throughout the last year I've been through 3 pretty solid prospects among a healthy amount of SNLs and fuckbuddy type situations. I don't remember the last time any of my LTRs denied me sex, seriously disrespected me, or did anything that couldn't be remedied by a spanking and quick dictation of terms.

1 was a virgin when I met her. I dated her for around 6 months. Back then I was drinking too much, doing blow, and was generally a bit too full of myself. Me being a degenerate - her parents didn't like me, although I don't think they knew what I was into. Before I met her I had been in the game, reading red pill literature, practicing it in real life interactions and working on myself a ton - physically, mentally, inner game everything. I'm still proud of my frame control, being the man in the relationship, all the things I aspired to be when I started I did a decent job of doing throughout the whole damn thing. But her parents didn't like me because I wasn't tactful when running my relationship, I failed to help manage her relationship with them. Her friends didn't like me because I essentially took their best friend away and didn't manage that situation properly. Eventually she caved to the pressure and broke up with me, right at the peak and height of my love for her. While she wasn't without her issues she was a very sweet virgin girl I had intended on making my wife eventually and having children with. I haven't talked to her since that day but I'm still broken up about it and it's been almost a year.

2. This girl I used to call my loyal sidebitch - even though she wasn't a sidebitch we were just fuckbuddies. Her situation was complicated but she was always completely submissive to me. The dealbreaker here was that she had a childhood to adulthood boyfriend (who was okay with her banging me for some reason, I asked to see text messages in disbelief) back where she was from. She wasn't super attractive (probably a 5-6) but she was definitely a good girl and I had to guide her in everything she did because of her naivety and general lack of experience. I had no problem doing that. One day we had a discussion on if she should ditch her boyfriend (the only man she had ever had sex with before me) and I told her I don't think she could become what I wanted her to. It was a really heartfelt serious conversation and that's how that one ended. We still bang from time to time but mother of my children is off the table.

3. Was a crazy arty redhead girl who wanted to be an actor. Last time I posted we broke up but we got back together. I immediately disqualified her from being mother of my children due to a lot of red flags in the beginning. Well that relationship grew and it was really functional, she was unbelievably submissive while having great personality and making my life easier (except for every week when she would have a Bi-polar style break, but I'm used to that and I squashed it fairly quickly by being quick and smart). I ended up being in love with her - I mean I'm a stark pragmatist so as much love as someone like me could be in. I only realized I loved her and it was too late. Like she had talked to me about before she decided to move back home for the summer. I was so in love with her I actually considered moving with her, but I just couldn't. I couldn't leave my area where I'm still desperately trying to get ahead, all my connections, all my friends behind, even for the summer. I tried every trick in the book to get her to stay but her parents paid for her everything and she needed their approval desperately so she left. Near the end I ended up getting really salty and broke up with her in a mean drunken salty way. She still came back to me, fucked, cooked me dinner, bought me clothes, and saw me every day until she had to leave. On our final night I got drunk again because of the stress and ruined our last night together and sent her home. She still hits me up from time to time but I'm too salty and immature and basically tell her "should have stayed". I'm not sure if this woman could've became the mother of my children but I was willing to explore it and optimistic because she showed a great capacity for change which I find rare in people but especially women, it's usually a good sign someone loves you.

Essentially with better game and being a stronger and more focused man I could have made one of those work at least long enough to determine more of what I want and how I want things to be ran.

I've come up with a pretty strong model for how I want my relationships ran. I regularly find that it's not my model that fails, it's a few mistakes that I make trying to execute my model that fuck things up. I admit I have a lake of experience with LTRs, as anyone can see none of these things last longer than 6 months and that's just not long enough to get into the real shit. When some real tragedy strikes or some real life and compatibility arise.

It's made me realize that to accomplish my goals I simply need to become a better man. I need to get my house in order, keep grinding on my career and business ventures, and health/fitness. Not for any 1 girl but for my happiness, and my future children.

The main issue I'm running into along the way though is finding a girl that will come along for this ride of me growing and becoming better. Dating sites/apps seem to have a 1/1000 chance of yielding such a girl (that's if they become actual prospects). The nicer looking traditional girls I've approached with daygame don't respond well to me, or my approaches. Nightgame is out of the question, and due to my social circle so is that. I'm not rich enough to relocate and I'm hating myself for being an Atheist because I would literally go to church to just find a nice traditional girl to have children with but I refuse to be someone who I'm not. I respect religion but I'm a non-thiest, I can't lie to myself or anyone around me for that reason.

I know I have a lot to work on still, I'm nowhere near being who I want to be yet - but I still yearn for a woman that would support my path to becoming the man who I want. It's not a strict requirement but it's a real want I can't seem to ignore. These vapid sluts off tinder, or occasional night game bang do very little for me other than sexual release and I've gotten good enough with game and my life that it's not that hard to get a SNL or a 2 date lay once every two weeks.

What I'm really looking for is someone to mentor me, I still have a lot of questions and ideas and it would be nice to have someone to bounce ideas off of. I'm smart, realistic, and willing to learn. Any takers?

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(12-25-2017 02:40 PM)Eugenics Wrote:  Banged two new girls this last week. Both from online. 1 was married, a first for me. I hit it raw and busted in her lol.

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Mistakes were made. That's around the same time I contracted an STI. Didn't know for a while and gave it to crazy redhead girl. She was cool about it. Actually everyone I had fucked in between I texted and they were pretty chill about it too. Anyway, i got ahold of myself and don't talk to that married woman anymore. A few months ago I saw her on a dating site and she mentioned on her profile she was divorced