Took bus down to Sihanoukville. About 6 hours from PP. We'll get to that...
Had a date last night in PP off badoo with a unicorn. This Cambodian girl actually graduated college! And was a 24 year old virgin!! Things only worked out that she was in my area bc it was Sunday. I had been on a sunset cruise so didn't see her message but she actually waited for an hour.
She said it's basically impossible to meet a decent guy in PP. She was super shy but into me. I took her to a happy hour on Golden Street and drew the curtain in a cabana by the pool, but there was a family splashing around for most of our date so she was super shy. We made out a little. She said she hadn't even been kissed before and from the way she did it I would have to agree. She poured most of her beer into my glass. She said I would have to meet her dad and get permission and marry her before we could bang. But later she was texting that she wanted to explore with me.
It's funny bc that morning I was supposed to have a date with another student. That girl was on Tinder but super busy in a dual degree program. We texted for over a week. She was willing to meet me for like two hours starting at 8am Sunday. But everything I suggested she was like no to breakfast, no to massage, so I just flaked. She was maybe a 6-7.
Anyway this girl said I was the first guy that ever gave her these feelings and she would like me to be her boyfriend. It's weird bc you here the same fluff shit from prostitutes too. They both want to be taken care of in different ways I guess... She wasn't real cute but better than her photo. I guess a 6 or so for a Cambodian.
So I had matched this girl on Tinder that had been up in PP for a supposed photo shoot. She says she does modeling. In actuality over dinner in Sinouk she told me she did like two small private shows at a bikini bar for like $50. The dude who was supposed to photo her is some scumbag expat with no training who she was gonna stay with but got locked out.
Her whole narrative was a series of mishaps and really sad. She had a hard life like most Cambo. She had an 8th grade education and had to work at a factory at 15 to support herself. I have some sympathy for that, but I mean my grandma had a life like that in America too and still turned out to be a classy lady. My grandma didn't have much but she wasn't remotely down the path of this chick.
You want to hear this story? I don't think you do. I mean you can probably guess. No she claimed to never have been an actual prostitute, that would have been the smart path. She's been running around getting used by losers with no compensation and at times physically abused. I noticed a dog bite scar on her leg too. I actually had to sit through this and hide the horror from my face.
It's sad bc this girl was the best looking non-whore I've met. I'd say a solid 8. She did lose points after dinner when I took her to Taboo. She raised her shirt and grabbed her belly flab and showed me how she was getting fat. I was like yeah I mean I used to model too and so did my sister. Youre going on 22? I mean you're too short for runway but you're never going to get legit work if you don't start taking care of yourself. She showed me her bikini photo and I thought wow if I saw that before I probably would not have met her. But I was trying to be nice bc I really felt sorry for this chick.
I new she was going to be a bit trashy. But I let her know by text that I like it when girls show an intelligent, classy, elegant side. It can be even more charming if they're trying despite shortcomings. She just had no idea. It was truly sad to watch her.
I asked what her dream was. It was to own some land and have a restaurant and maybe a hotel. But she had looked in Kampot and the cheapest place in town was $300,000. That USD! So totally unaffordable. I later asked so what do you see yourself doing in the next 5 or 10 years bc that's not a reality (she couldn't save that much in 10 lifetimes). She tells me she will find a rich boyfriend.
Again I bite my tongue bc I don't want to insult this girl. I think really? You got used by a bunch of really old and really young guys and you're already past your prime. You can't even find a decent job. But you think any dude with anything going for him is gonna touch you with a 10 foot pole? He's only gonna fuck you and leave. Get real! I hated when people asked me questions like that when I was her age but at least I'd say something realistic.
The really sad thing that I definitely couldn't share with her. She's actually sitting next to the one dude in her whole life who has that much cash on hand. I usually don't but coming into the election I shifted some investments around to hedge against either outcome. In fact my bank had just emailed saying the deposits had all cleared back into my brokerage account, lol. So I'm thinking god what a dummy. She's sold her ass for a few bucks to old men. Then here she is talking to me (handsome, young, educated, sincere, worldly, athletic, relatively rich) and it's almost like she's trying to do everything she can to make me run away! Like literally I would bet you that this girl will never again sit next to and talk with a guy who actually has that much cash and could at least theoretically make her dream come true. So sad.
Final nail in the coffin. I should have just walked her from restaurant back to my room and fucked her like she's probably used to getting. Honestly I was scared she was gonna either ask for money or feel like I was just like every other guy. The reason I met this chick was bc I want a local girl to travel with for a few weeks to a month. I did this in Laos and it was wonderful. I actually wish I pushed for that girl to meet me here. But she's a typical hot useless chick who I'd have to make all the arrangements for.
Initially I told this girl she'd have to pay for herself like a normal woman her age. But after a week in PP I realized I wasn't going to meet any Cambo girl who could do that. Even if I payed for hotel since I'd be getting private rooms anyway. So our tentative agreement was I'd pay all her costs plus give her some money when we parted ways. It sounded tantamount to prostitution to me but I thought I'd at least give her a shot. I remember what it's like to be poor but honest.
So after we ditch Taboo (which is the only classy bar/club/lounge in town and was COMPLETELY EMPTY, of course, bc everyone in town is trash) I walk her back to my place. She doesn't like holding hands and is worried about people seeing her. I wonder why she cares bc it sounds like she's been around the block several times and with old guys on their deathbed (part of a story was about a guy who died on her).
Ever since dinner she was talking about meeting friends at the Big Easy Bar. She actually just said "my friend". But she did tell me about the orbiter guy she's been using who is the friend of her friend's boyfriend. She's been stringing him along for a week or so.
So I get her back to my room and she's treating me like an orbiter. So I tell her I think ur confused. I've been trying to demonstrate to you that I'm not a scumbag sex tourist and build some trust and rapport. Since we actually need to establish this if we're going to start traveling together tomorrow (just a day trip to start). But she's playing hard to get and says she'll text me later and we can go to the beach.
I needed to shower and get some work done so I let her go. After 40 min I walk over to the bar and she's surprised to see me. I'm like well this is the only real place to drink in serendipity beach. I know you purposely didn't invite me but I'm gonna end up meeting ur friends at some point. Honestly I'm not sure if she was hiding me from her friends or her friends from me.
I know I def still could have banged her up until this point. It was partly a dick move, but I wasn't interested to just bang a decent looking chick as much as I wanted to see what her crew was like. Because I've never had problems in all my travels around the world bc I have a zero tolerance policy on associating with trash of any kind. Even if they're nice people. They still do dumb stuff like piss in the street, petty theft, drunken shanigans, lost their shit, start dumb fights over nothing. Best to avoid anyone that falls into that category. And boy did they.
She's awkward but introduces me to one of her friends. A huge orca fat and trashy english girl. I'm sure she's a nice girl and all, but all the girls in the group turn out to be slobs. I had seen them drunkenly dancing to 80s music all the way from the street and almost turned back I was so horrified. I thought well no way I will have to interact with them. Wrong.
Then her orbiter comes over and starts cavemanning her like a 12 year old. Looked more like wrestling actually. Pug nosed ugly bearded sunburnt backpacker who looks at me like wtf but is so drunk goes right back to cavemanning her. She's struggling all girly like tee hee get away from me. But at times actually slapping him pretty violent. Just real trash interaction if I ever saw one.
Again I'm horrified but don't want to just walk out. She offers me a drink from a bucket full of yellow slop that tasted worse than it looked. It had a dozen straws for all of them to drink like little piggies. I thought am I being elitist here? Let me at least try to get into this. I took a few more sips and bopped for 5 min. A few busted but skinny western girls walked through the bar and gave me iois. I'm thinking ugh is this really my life? What did I do wrong? I feel like I need therapy...
She suddenly fucks off with her fat friend towards the back of the bar. I take this is my opportunity to cut my losses. I walk out. I head towards the beach and send her a text "I don't think we're a good match, sorry".
Down at the beach it's about the same. A few Khmer people. I open every girl. Two set looks like they could be 14. Say they are 18 and 19. Going on and on about how the cops took their bracelets bc they were trying to sell them at night. And now they need money bc their mom will be mad. Some Khmer dudes come over and start fucking around with them like cavemen. One dude sneaks up behind them and grabs her breasts. Girls are pissed. Taking off their ratty ass sandals to hit the guys and defend themselves. Guys just laugh and keep doing it. I walk away disgusted.
I accept a second free flyer for a free drink, ahem slop, at Rockys. Because my first plastic cup of watered down turds wasn't good enough. But hey it's free. I open some girls who are obviously prostitutes. They way they look at you all interested then turn to the raggedy ass beach bum who is a walking heroin addict poster and give them the same look. Well that just makes you feel special.
I'm given a third flyer but run after a girl I see walking out who has a fine ass body from behind. I turn her and introduce myself. Fuck busted Khmer face. And whats this bonus? I huge slash and stitch across her face. Looks like a cartoon stiching I used to draw in the 4th grade when I wanted to sketch a guy who was a total badass street person. Just what I look for in a woman. She didn't remember how it happened. Only she was drinking, fell, and woke up. But on the bright side she kept repeating she would be OK by Friday. Can't miss the big Sea Party coming up. (Sounds like a Thai products sale essentially but room prices double all over Sihanouk).
I open a couple normal looking girls who are sitting down. They are polite. They noticed I walked up and down the beach a few times and asked what I was looking for. I'm like well this will sound crazy but I'd like to meet a normal middle class cambodian woman. They laugh and say you will never meet her on the beach, bar, club, etc. Both of them had boyfriends but when I inquire further they are just kinda boyfriends. Oh foreigners? Yes. Oh how old? 50s lol! These girls are like early 20s.
So every available hot girl in Cambodia is kinda fucked up in one way or another. Either a student with no time but wants a relationship with no sex before marriage. Or I'm an ATM and I'm sharing her pussy with a bunch of other dudes that probably fuck whores on the reg. Wonderful.
On a positive note (relatively speaking) my main girl in PP slept over last night. She works 2-10;30 at a big hotel. She's cute but not hot. She always asks if I've eaten and comes over with food. She says I'm too skinny. I'm like uh, actually I've slacked off and I consider myself overweight (I still have a 6 pack but hold impossible standards for myself).
She makes decent money and essentially doubles her pay with tips bc they usually stick her with VIPs. So she knows how to be normal and show class. She's so sweet. But I'm not sexually attracted to her after a few bangs. So she just does massages and we talk and cuddle. She wasn't even mad when I had blown her off Saturday night to try to pick up a girl (ended in failure, bc I honestly did not see one hot girl the whole night).
I'm getting seriously depressed here in Cambodia. My thing is to visit a country and max out my visa while I try to see everything. So I'll be here traveling around at least another 2-3 weeks. But shit. It's distressing me to be here. I haven't found any reason anyone with anything going for them would ever want to come here.
Oh yeah so as I'm walking off the beach in a stuper of depression I see the girl I texted. We walk next to each other for a second. I nudge her. I'm like did u get my text? She's super sad like yeah

I tell her I think you were a little rude to me. She admits yeah a little. She does a sad walk into a shitty beach bar where her fatty friends are dancing with each other and the orbiter dude looks like he is having the time of his life.
I feel so much frustration and sadness but I know there's nothing left to do or say. This country is fucked for at least another few generations. Both of the educated chicks I met told me they'd grab any opportunity to get out of Cambodia but their only concern was their family who supported their studies. I asked what if you could get your family eventually. Then it was no question absolutely they would leave.