Post: #101

I got another one.

Girl broke up with her boyfriend, on the rebound. Art chick.

We grabbed drinks and she wanted to take me to her place and show me her pet rat. I was a virgin at that time.

I took off her top, tits and all. When she tried to take my clothes off, I resisted.

She told me that I was the most "gentlemanly" guy she ever met.

We proceeded to date a bit but she broke up with me not long before I cried myself to sleep for a few nights.

This was my first sexual experience.

Post: #102

Had a gorgeous asian girl that used to like me. The more we talked the more she seemed to like me. But I never did anything about it and she lost interest. Worst was when I finally realized it was to late but It was to late for me as I had become very infatuated with her. I started to beta orbit her. God I was stupid haha it will always feel like the one that got I away

Post: #103

Liked a girl from school, added her on facebook and actually sent her a message thanking her for accepting the add.

Thinking about it used to make my skin crawl but now it just makes me laugh. Probably helps that I was about 14 at the time.

Post: #104

Got married not once but twice because we were shacking up and they were foreigners.

Post: #105

Too many to count. I discovered the forum too late. It was a series of trial and error.

One time added a girl on Facebook because she rejected number exchange. After a week she promptly delete me.

One time I was chatting up this girl. She say so you're gonna buy me a drink? I said sure. Then she disappeared.

One time I happened to see an old coworker. She was very flirty. Bought her a drink. She disappeared as well...

One time had a girlfriend, bought her flowers, made her dinner, did little stupid sweet things. Told her I loved her. She cheated on me. Damn I was a total beta.

Post: #106

Wrote a long (5,000 word) letter to my ex-wife a fortnight after we seperated. I was gushing my "you are my world" feelings, while also lacing it with disgusting gamma frame-control and "it's all your fault" passive-aggressive rage.

Thank fuck I never sent it. Just found it recently while clearing out my store room. Couldn't read past the first page without vomiting into my mouth in disgust at how I was then.

I wrote it five years ago.

Post: #107

(04-27-2014 09:03 AM)xxMarco Wrote:  Too many to count.

This. Hell, things that i used to consider alfa before, i find insanely beta now.

Post: #108

Apologizing to a woman I liked at work when she was being a bitch to me; although I had done nothing wrong at all (she just basically had an attitute problem)

Got tired of her "problem" after a while and put her in her place. Needless to say she was very flirtatious after that (didn't pursue it because it seemed awkward after being enemies for so long).

Post: #109

Used to fuck this slut who not only rode the cock carousel, she could have started a business supplying cock carousels to every showground in the country. Anyway, one day she asked me for a lift to the home of another one of her cock carousel riders. I refused... she threatened no more sex... I caved in like a little bitch. So basically, I drove her over to another guy's place so she could be fucked.

There are others, but even now they smart as they involved a relationship. The good thing is I know I will never do these things again.

Post: #110

A long distance relationship for nearly two years. Ugh.

Post: #111

Probably going to my then ex-gf's college campus (she had just moved there) and bawling my eyes out in a rose garden with her holding my hand.

That's what you get when you don't fuck a chick right and lose frame hard!

She ended up dating some bi-polar guy at the college....I wish that had been my moment of red pill realization, but unfortunately it was not.

Post: #112

It's great to see all of these responses. I've got a couple too.

Lost my virginity to a girl that my friend was tagging. I got the sloppy seconds. My friend was a great bro though.

Had a crush on a girl in high school. Made a fake email address so I could send a romantic poem I copy-pasted off the internet to her. Pretty sure she knew it was me.

Got drunk and cried like a bitch in front of my ex girlfriend after we broke up.

Cried a couple times in front of my current girlfriend.

Jeez. Smh.

Post: #113

This one is pretty awful. A girl who I had known for many, many years let me stay at her place about 5 years ago. I had graduated from college and she was a senior. Went to go see my favorite band play. Instead, she convinces me to go watch her professor played a music show. It was awful to watch; incredibly boring. Afterwards, we went to a bar and started drinking. I paid for all her drinks. From there, we were both drunk and we went back to her house. We got into her bedroom and started making out. She grabbed my dick and I started going down on her. We are both naked but won't let me put it in. Then, she completely shuts down and I end up with blue balls for not trying to get past her LMR.

From then, I texted her a few times to see if the attraction was still there. She was giving me one word responses like she couldn't give a shit. I also bought her flowers on Valentine's Day, which was a month after everything went down, thinking that I would score some points. She barely acknowledged the flowers and said she started dating some guy she was good friends with at school.

I then got a girlfriend who took advantage of me and led me to wasted energy trying to please. I then found her cheating on me which led me into a deeper abyss of self loathing and disappointment.

Afterwards, I discovered this site and learned an entire different level of thinking. No woman is worth my time or money. After reading post after post, I have developed myself into a much better man. I gained a massive amount of muscle, greatly improved my style, and had sex with more girls than I would have ever dreamed at during this time in my life.

TLR Don't do what I did.

Post: #114

Pretended to stab myself with a fork when a girl tried to break up with me. All the while in tears. You live and learn

Post: #115

Got friendzoned.

Accepted it.

Told myself, "She'll come around when she see's how awesome I am."

She came around.

On all of my awesome friends.

Confronted her about it.

Got pity fucked.

Liked it.

Post: #116

(01-18-2013 02:44 PM)Moma Wrote:  Wrote a letter to myself about my feelings of a lizard.
Asked the lizard to give us another chance when she dumped me.
Texted a lizard way too much (shout out to G manifesto for shining the light in my eye).
Contemplated buying a lizard a drink when she asked in Moonlighting (club in London).
Listened to what a lizard said instead of watched her actions.
Spent hours on the phone (pillow talk) with a lizard.
Argued with a lizard over the direction of our relationship.

^
I've done all of that and more.


1. Buying a lizard that I was in an LTR with a gift to celebrate us being together for 6 months. Then I did it again after 1 year of being together. 2 weeks later she dumped me for another guy...

2. Complaining to my LTR lizard that she didn't show me enough affection anymore (she didn't put out as much anymore either, which I also complained about).

3. Telling my lizard "I love you" ad nauseam.

4. Asking a lizard why she wouldn't consider me to be her boyfriend and why she kept dating these jerks and assholes instead.

5. Telling my LTR lizard that I didn't want her to hang out with one of her beta orbiter friends anymore because I was afraid this beta orbiter friend would steal my lizard from me.


Almost all of these happened in my blue-pill era though, before I took the red pill. But I have to admit that number 2 and number 5 in my list actually happened quite recently with my last LTR (now ex LTR, I dumped her).

God I feel bad now.

Post: #117

In middle school I asked a girl to the Sadie Hawkins Dance. (Girls are supposed to ask guys)

For the 8th grade Christmas exchange, I got my crush a green tennis ball (she played tennis) and drew a grinch face on it. She wasn't my secret santa I just got her it. I gave it to her and she awkwardly smiled. That was the most humiliating thing I have ever done.

Post: #118

Drove one of my hot female friends all the way home from hanging out because her fuck buddy had texted her.
Bought my girlfriend of three weeks flowers(haven't we all?)
Drove two and a half hours to take a girl from OKC out on a date, she had a pretty face but turned out to be kindof SIF. Didn't bang.
Drove nine hours(-_-) to hang out with one of my female friends who was giving me IOIs. She was away at college and I drove NINE hours. I did get the bang(it sucked). She was cold to me after that.

This one has to be the worst though:

I really liked this girl. We had kissed a couple of times but I felt she was out of my league. She would always invite me over to smoke. I tried to finger her at a party once when she was drunk and she resisted, but still wanted to be my friend. I ended up driving all the way to her house twice to smoke and hang out, slept over IN HER BED. And didn't get the bang. The third time she invited me over I thought I'd get it that time but she went to sleep early so I left. And after all of that, I sent her a text asking her for another chance and that I wanted to take her out on a date and she said she was busy. Cold hearted bitch.

Post: #119

I've done lots of beta shit like persisting with girls who barely knew I existed, getting to know a girl for a year before making a move (only to be rejected for being too slow), getting oneitis for a fatty and being afraid to touch a girl even when she asked me to.

But my brother did even worse. He tried to kill himself when his girlfriend dumped him for another guy. The girl called him an idiot for trying it.

Post: #120

I bought a girl an expensive heart-shaped box of chocolates for Valentine's day -- as a way of introducing myself to her.

I took a girl back after she cheated.

On multiple occasions, I spent big dollars on first dates to try and impressive girls who had shown marginal or no interest.

Post: #121

My sin? First girlfriend cheated after a year... proceeded to date her for another year all the while being suicidally depressed and blaming myself wondering what I did wrong.

My penance? Ran into her at a party two years later, got her into bed, she cheated on new bf with me, got the "I still love you"s from her.... then left and never talked to her again.

Shitty way to spend a year but a bought lesson is a taught lesson.

Post: #122

When I was 18, I drove a girl that I liked to her boyfriend's house because she thought he was cheating. I thought she's going to see him with another girl and realize how much better I am than him and then leave with me and we'll live happily ever after . She told me to wait outside his house and then called me 10 minutes later and told me to leave. I was heartbroken.

Post: #123

I was a chubby girl's cuddle buddy for months. I didn't bang her, I didn't realize I coulda.

Post: #124

Oh God, this could take a week or more.

1) Not dumping my crazy girlfriend when she'd bitch me out for not agreeing with her left-wing views.

2) Chasing after my ex-girlfriend and having the worst "oneitis" for her.

3) Making out with a hot Vietnamese girl who was my best friend at the time and then telling her that I wasn't interested because I was still chasing after my ex-girlfriend.

I was really fucking pathetic in high school.

Post: #125

I took a girl on a four month trip to Europe on my dime. As soon as we got back she began acting like such a bitch that I was forced to dump her. That was pretty much the moment I swallowed my first doses of the red pill before I even knew what the red pill was. That was ten years ago, and if I met myself back then, I probably wouldn't even recognise who I am.