Post: #1

Yeah I had my doubts about posting about that publicly, however, I never plan on being a 9-5 worker for a corporation where I have a reputation to maintain. I'll be a writer or a theoretical physicist/mathematician someday. I don't need to give a damn about what someone thinks of me to be creative or solve problems.

I was having a shitty morning (just thinking about my future in general) until I read your PM. This is why I love the forum, real men with real life experience. I can't listen to the opinions of the my age early twenty-something college paid for by parents opinions. I don't claim to have had a rough upbringing or to have come from the "wrong side of the tracks." You will never hear me claim to be a "tough guy" or "bad-ass." At the same time I can quite literally tell that I have lived and learned and lost more in my 23 years than they will in there 77.6 years or whatever the hell the average male is supposed to live. I just let them think they know the way things actually work to be polite. Let them win the petty arguments, I know a lot more than they ever will combined. (Referring to my family, friends, and acquaintances.) This would be boastful and cocky if it weren't true, but it is, so I am forced to conclude I really don't require their presence in my life any longer. I will keep in touch with them, but they have nothing to offer me in terms of wisdom or love anymore, another conclusion I have come to based on their actions actions after her suicide.

I'm moving on rather well, but I smiled when you wrote that your mother was your "beloved mother, my best friend and the best person you have ever known." We all use different words to describe our emotions and at the same time I think we have deeply intertwined sentiments here. She was my best friend, though I would say that her most beloved aspect for me was that she was the only person I felt truly knew me, in so far as one human can truly know another.

I feel like a man without a shadow at the moment, no past shackling me back at the moment. I'm going to pick the life I want to live and become the man who lives that life. Right now I am leaning towards Hank Moody a la Californication (semi-joking, would be a nice life though), though it will probably slide back towards the science end. (Who the fuck knows? The future doesn't scare me anymore, alright,well, only slightly, I am not that zen yet.

I apologize for not getting back to you sooner, I was un-plugged from the net for a little R&R after that vent. I rarely talk about it, and never yet to anonymous strangers on a forum.

I want you to know the fact that you took the time to write me about your experience absolutely turned my day around, I feel a bit inspired now. Was working with a hangover and a pissed attitude before i read your PM. Did anyone else know his PMs could cure hangovers? You might be able to make some bank off this man!

Stay in touch, if you ever need help or advice on anything, I'll be around. Usually I reply faster than two days later.

I hope you have a great day. I know for a fact I will, got big plans. Gaming some hotties at the beach (what can I say, I'm insatiable when they are wearing almost no clothes. It's like I know just the right things to say and when to say them. Plus it doesn't hurt that I'm in the best shape of my life this summer, I can tell for sure this year I am getting eye-fucked every which way I turn.. Write that Nootropics data sheet I promised Moma. Job applications so I can save to move the fuck out of my soulless father's house, I'm not a doctor, but that man may be a true blue textbook sociopath.

I say the man is no father. I know I was an accidental pregnancy even though they married after I was born. I suspect I am a mere social obligation to him, and not an important one at that.

Don't worry, I don't have "daddy issues", (Though if you can find the chicks that do, let me know, I think they like to chill in places that have poles going from the floor to the ceiling. Some other members may or may not know about this area." I figured this all out a long time ago at least before I was ten, and have come to terms with it. It really is no wound to me anymore. It will just be amusing when I surpass him in every single category that "society" judges a man in, the irony being I don't give a shit about what we are brainwashed into valuing. I already have in education. I am fairly apt in a stock market sense and know ways to make money fast. I just never cared that much about the dough. More the intellectual and learning type, but I can put those talents to practical use if I must, since I need to straight bounce the hell out from under his roof.

They say the best revenge is living well. For me, that will be living an unfettered lifestyle, no one tying me down or holding any kind of claim on my emotions, unless they earn it. The last person who had a claim on my love is dead. I hope to find plenty more that will in the future (women, and close guy friends,no homo and all that.) For the moment, the fact that no one holds an emotional lien on me is an asset, and it feels utterly exhilerating at the same instant. Travelling, learning every single day, meeting new people and only keeping the best. Fuck the rest.

+1 from me Vacancier Permanent (if I knew how to or could do that I'd rep you for that PM, shit was from the heart, you are a class act. I'm going to put this on a thread omitting your personal details, so the forum can see the spark of inspiration you graced me with. I wish you nothing but the best in your future

In Grateful appreciation,
IWFTM

PS-Moma I can hear you breathing down my neck about that Nootropics Data sheet. My bad! I needed some R&R, family drama, girl drama. Actually the last two days I've had every form of drama besides that which is on stage.
It's in the making, hopefully done by tonight!

Now it's off to the beach I go. I was rolling dolo and helped some herbs open these two chicks tanning. There was a Legit 9, Armenian (3rd generation but elegantly ethnic looking still), beautiful tan, banging body with the most amazing hourglass shape, dark brown hair down to her ass. I don't have a type, But I Think I may now.

I gamed her, was about to get the number, she was into me for sure. Those fucking kids started asking ages....you can guess what happened next. They thought I was 18 or 19. (I'm 23) So the other guy gets the uggos number, I'm about to ask for the 9s number. Biggest Shit Eating Grin On Ever (only in my head, I have a superb poker face.) It turns out she was 15!!!! Going on sophomore in HIGH SCHOOL. I'm like fuck...
This chick was more woman that I have seen in the last 6 months and was eye-fucking the shit out of me. Oh well...always more fish in the sea. Though I do know her name and enough from the convo to look her up via the web (lives close)...just kidding...maybe...not really. It can just be platonic for two and half years? She'll understand that I need to see other women in the meantime, of course. I will have to keep an eye on any high school chode that makes a move on her of course!

(Disclaimer: The part about me actually contacting this girl may or may not be based on fact, or even reality for that matter. I think it was just a dream, possibly.

This one is a shout out for theGmanifesto. If this actually does happen, I have no say in the matter. It was predicted by a gypsy in my dream last night. It was written and so it shall be.

Post: #2

The PM he sent me was regarding this response in Roosh's thread linked below. I realized the top post was confusing without context. No need for any apologizies or sympathies, not trolling for attention. Just wanted to shout out to him for inspiring me and getting me re-motivated a bit. I've been slacking on improving my lifestyle a bit while working on my game perhaps a tad too much.

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Granted, it is a rambling sort of rant as I was drunk and pissed when I wrote it, but I applaud him for taking the time to sift through it and write a thoughtful PM to me about it.

"My biggest concern, well not so much concern, is moving on after my mother's suicide in February.

Since this happened I have definitely realized that the things people say, like "talking about it will make you feel better," or "It will only get worse if you hold it inside" Are completely wrong

All that is crap. You need to #1. Come to absolute terms with the fact you will never see that person again. (sometimes in dreams but they are never dead in the dreams, so waking up does suck for all of 3 minutes)

#2: You need to realize that you are not special. People die every day. People have immediate family that die everyday. Nobody is coming over with sympathy cards and your not getting a year off of work full paid vacation. Continue on exactly as you were.

3:I watched this Mad Men episode where Don visits Peggy after she just had an abortion. She basically wouldn't speak to anyone for months she was so depressed and don gives an amazing, shit I wouldn't even call it a pep-talk, that shit is Real-Talk
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kEMe3wj-Q...ure=fvwrel



They make him out to be an asshole but what does he do? What he needs to survive and to look out for people that he cares for. We got brainwashed growing up with bullshit about how everyone is equal and can be whatever they want. This is utter bullshit. Intelligence is roughly 60-80% determined by 25 years of age

One of the most ironic things is that people claim different races are smarter than others and bla bla, race is one of the few factors that make almostno difference to general mental ability. To wrap this up, I will never tell a child of mine they can be anything they want when they grow up, I sure as hell won't tell them they are special unless they show some extremely exceptional aptitude in a given.

What I've taken from this and how I plan to generally kick life's ass
1. I didn't yet mention that two days before she committed suicide I was incarcerated on a bench warrant for not paying the $732 dollar ticket on time. Good old pops visits me two days after being in Milwaukee County Jail and tells me that they found her dead in her apartment. Well there must be some kind of statute that if an immediate family member dies they must let you out for the funeral...bear in mind a Wisconsin first offense OWI is only a municipal citation, not even a misdemeanor.
So I'm having a grand old time in jail not having committed a crime and my mother just died...she was 48 btw...theres nothing to say about that other than I got robbed of my closest family member wayyy ahead of time. Anyways to cut this outrageous story short without expending anymore into it, didnt get out for the funeral the bail was only $750 and i later found out my uncle offered to cover HALF of it for my dad and he still said.
I did a grand old 24 days locked up, 22 of them knowing she was gone for good.

What am I doing to improve it? I learned real fuckin fast that life is way too short to give a fuck about other peoples opinions.
I've been working out like a monster since i got out early march. Gaming girls actually when previously I was just lurking around hear last summer.
Excuse the grammar on this one i wasn't given a damn so the rest of you shouldn't give a Fuck

Sorry for the shitty typing I caught a little emo fuck the world attitude while recounting it.

One more thing...Fuck the cops
And Mother Fuck Milwaukee County...David Clarke should die of gonorrhea and rot in hell"

Post: #3

I can vouch for IWFTM. He started off late in the game but will be deadly in a few years.

I'm sorry about your mom homie I'm glad that you're using it to make you stronger and not let it destroy you

Post: #4

(06-14-2012 02:16 PM)houston Wrote:  I can vouch for IWFTM. He started off late in the game but will be deadly in a few years.

I'm sorry about your mom homie I'm glad that you're using it to make you stronger and not let it destroy you

Yeah I refuse to let that shit derail me. I just remember the good times and do my best to let the bad times fade away. Once I get a job and get back to college I'll be firing on all cylinders.

@Houston Thanks for the vote of confidence. Heading to that beach right now going to see if I can do some damage. Let me know what you think of those new pics I put up. It's hard for me to tell if they are any good when it's not a legit action scene. About to add a couple more so there will be four new ones plus the three we thought I should keep.

I don't mean to come across as a cocky shit in those earlier posts. In person I am a really agreeable cat.

That's right I forgot you deleted your account. I think you can check offline anyways. W/e that was probably beta of me to ask anyways haha.

Post: #5

See I'm not liking this rant crap but...I hate that dude. Everybody who really knows him agrees he is one cold prick so I know I'm not delusional in this.

I need to get over my fear of sugar coating shit only for the benefit of others...it's only hurting me. I'm not saying that I should come out and be an asshole. I think in the past, just in life generally, I've been too modest and it has held me back from taking what I wanted. That's over now, for the most part. I'll pick my battles carefully but I'm not going to sweat the opinions of the faceless crowd of society.

I deserved to sit there no doubt, just not in that circumstance. Hell during a normal 24 days I'd rather sit that. They can cover my hotel and meal bills, haha. It's on them if they want to spend more money because I didn't pay them on time...some funny logic is going in that equation.

This is why I respect Roosh, G, and all the other guys that blog in public so much because they just put themselves out there. Granted some may make money but they are still putting themselves out there for the world to see and judge. As long as they are legit and not just out to make an easy buck off of people selling b.s., of course. They will catch hate from people that don't like to see others succeed.

Chime in with advice or especially criticisms. That way I can keep some checks and balances on my own bullshit.

I feel like I'm talking to myself in a mirror...and I can hear Houston's disembodied voice coming from somewhere...

Post: #6

ok you talk a lot man. you need to make it short and sweet if you want us to really dissect your thoughts. i need to come in here when im sober.

Post: #7

(06-15-2012 12:05 AM)houston Wrote:  ok you talk a lot man. you need to make it short and sweet if you want us to really dissect your thoughts. i need to come in here when im sober.

I am pretty sure 90% of my posts are when im slicked. Explains a lot.

But ill second the VP love. Great guy and we have PMed a bit. Too bad the last two I sent him he never got, not sure what the deal was.

VP, if you ever need some intel on your private pilots license hit me up. Those flight instructors at most flight schools are scrubs with only a few hundred hours at best and are only interest in moving up in the hours, not teaching a new student.

Post: #8

I really did not understand any of this, however I know VP is solid and legit. Don't know him personally, but its just a feeling one gets.

Post: #9

(06-16-2012 02:17 AM)FretDancer Wrote:  I really did not understand any of this, however I know VP is solid and legit. Don't know him personally, but its just a feeling one gets.

I don't understand a word either. I think we found a match for Greek kamaki.

Post: #10

Yeah I wrote that shit while smashed. True story though.