(12-19-2018 05:15 PM)firat113 Wrote: This is a fucked up story, i am not taking sides with OP. But you guys have to realize this is what incels have come to in our current society. Incels back then were losers, nerds, gamers and antisocial people that had a hard time connecting with girls/make friends in the real world. OP is only one of the many new generation incels that had the balls to share his story, and i don't believe he's hopeless, he's reaching out and trying to fix himself and his shitty past, that's a good start. Now, whether it's too late or not, i am not to judge.
Imagine how many other incels out there are hiding on dark secrets that will never come to the surface and see the light of the sun. Twisted fucked up thoughts and acts they have committed behind everyone's backs. Pedophilia, rape, abuse, torture, etc. I imagine some incels nowadays to be psychopaths or truly fucked up individuals. It's not just your internet warriors hiding behind their computer screen, i think some have so much hatred and it's boiling to the point that it can explode at any moment. These guys end up do school shootings, stab innocent girls, rape... you get the point. "The world is so unfair to me" kind of mentality.
Incel is a word taken lightly and joked around with a lot, but honestly, it's worse than most people think. The guys are not misunderstood virgins, they are a group of people getting together to rationalize for their lack of success in society by committing illegal acts and boasting about it on forums, saying "they deserved it". Elliot Rodgers kind of shit. It scares me reading how OP literally stalked this one girl for over 5 years without saying a single word to her. Imagine how much obsessive thoughts he must have built up inside of him.
I got tired of hiding my dark secrets. I went through hell in 2011-2015 because of this fetish mixed with high testosterone levels.
The complete isolation it made me feel and the emotions swilling around inside my head, no one ever knew what was wrong.
I feel like I could have enjoyed the affections of a sweet young girl that whole time, when I would have been the same age.
I guess I fell for feminist propaganda that tells young men that they are "not entitled" to sex.
But I think they meant it in the context of a relationship, that you can't bend her over when she doesn't feel like it.
Rather than meaning that men should not seek out female interaction.
Going to this special needs boarding school meant that I was completely isolated from females growing up until the age of 16, where I was further isolated when I started to study computer science (a big mistake, career wise and female interaction wise).
The WHOLE time, day game was what I needed and the fact that all my prime years went to waste when I could have been out approaching is absolutely sickening, the realisation that I had no reason to be denying myself female interaction.
(12-19-2018 05:36 PM)DJ-Matt Wrote: (12-19-2018 04:25 PM)eradicator Wrote: I only skimmed through this initially, missed the part about op getting off on watching women get chopped up. What the fuck
Don't worry, it was probably all bullshit, a fairly obvious troll job by a new member. He probably knew the story would get him banned.
Would I have thrown away 13 years of my life when I could have been banging prime pussy just to make a post on you're stupid forum? Answer: NO.
The threads on here make me jealous of you guys, especially the ones from back in the likes of 2008 when I had to masturbate every morning before college just so that I could focus on my course work.
Now I don't even get erections like I used to a few years ago, despite being only 8% body fat.
Why the hell would I want to go to all that effort just to get banned. You are a fucking idiot.
(12-20-2018 04:50 AM)Montrose Wrote: I think being aroused by female autopsy is strange but not pathological per se. Considering your other problems, it could be dangerous if it leads to cruelty and violence.
Psychosis: I’m not a psychologist, but the way you dwell on your past problems and blame your situation on external causes, the way you are angered by your situation when it is not that bad, the way you obsess with ´girls from social circle’ (fyi only 3-4% of the girls I’ve fucked were from my social circle), the way you obsess with 18-25 girls you have missed (I’ve fucked dozens of 18-25 girls in my forties), everything show that your world view is distorted, which could be a sign of psychosis.
I don't relate to the description of psychosis other than my view of my own life, which is through my own eyes as someone who was paranoid after leaving school.
For a long time, I was paranoid that people would expose my "aspergers" in social interactions.
Look, it's encouraging that you've fucked 18 year old girls in you're 40s, but really, it's not the same as when you are in that age group.
Plus, I've got to live a truncated life, maybe go for 5-10 day game bangs in a couple of years with higher quality young women and then look for a woman to have a son with.
So that he can live the life that I was could have lived.
(12-20-2018 08:15 AM)BlastbeatCasanova Wrote: Your post made me realize that I have it pretty damn good, thanks for the reality check.
I hope you’re not going to pull any Elliot Roger shit. Your post doesn’t reek of negativity and hatred like his manifesto did (which I read, and would recommend. Very interesting read.) you sound like you’re trying to figure out how to better your situation and this forum is a great place to start.
Your fetish is weird as fuck, but people have weird kinks, I don’t get it or understand but as long as you aren’t hurting anyone I don’t see a big deal. People are into some weird ass shit today. I’m just into tits and ass.
I’ve said it before but I predict this whole incel thing is going to get worse and cause some bigproblems in society. I can’t imagine the existential frustration of not being able to connect and interact with women, much less not being able to fuck one. Good luck
I'm not interested in ER shit. I'm not interested in hurting anybody. Autopsies are horrific but I guess seeing the object of my desire (female body) being rendered into it's component parts and shown that it is nothing special is satisfying in a very sexually perverse way. It's very stressful for me to view but also very arousing.
You are correct, I am trying to better my situation and thanks for you're understanding.
My fetish came at a time of massive crisis and despair. I was in my early 20s, an incel and pumping a lot of testosterone through my body. People in this feminised society just tell you that "you will get a girlfriend" but, without a social circle, no one tells you
how.
It got annoying, all my mum's friends telling me that I was a "nice young man" (not knowing I wanted to stab them) back in 2008 and telling me how they were sure I would get a girlfriend soon, but now I am knocking on 30 and I've never had one, mainly due to the confusing message of feminism.
I remember searching for answers on the internet over the years.
A common suggestion was people saying the classic phrase that "there is more to life than women" when people on forums express frustration on this topic, but when you're testosterone is raging in you're mid teens and 20s, it is very distracting if you aren't getting female attention.
And I'm not sure the "there's more to life than women" people realise that you are not getting
any female interaction at all.
In my opinion, mid teens to mid 20s should be spent focusing on women because that is you're physical prime. You CAN have you're cake and eat it. Be single from 15-25, spin plates, have fun, have memories, then settle down and start a family at 25+.
I'm not as horny as I used to be a few years ago, I can go weeks without masturbating now, which is good, but I yearn for the days when I was so horny and on a hair trigger and actually be able to relieve it with a young girl.
Plus, I don't have any memories of women in my life from my early years. I've got no memories like you see of the young adults in the movies when they are just hanging out and shooting the breeze.
I've just lived my whole youth shut indoors on internet forums and games, which at the time I accepted as my lot but didn't realise things could have been different until I saw cold approaching videos on Youtube earlier this year.
(12-20-2018 12:32 PM)kaotic Wrote: I know this is probably a troll job.
But OP if true needs SERIOUS help from professionals.
Watching videos of dead women being cut up by a doctor and jerking off is NOT healthy.
There is no anger towards doctors because, that's their job.
Stop watching any type of sexual video, stop jerking off, workout more, and focus on better your career options.
But above all, you need professional help.
Why do you suggest working out more?
In 2011 when I was living at university (at the peak of my autopsy fetish) I was working out 5x per week. 3 days strength training, 2 days cardio training at the uni gym.
My testosterone levels where through the roof, which just made me really angry and tense the whole time, I felt like I was going to hit someone in public if they looked at me wrong. It was a stressful time.
I guess my testosterone levels have dropped since then because I am nearly 30 and I don't have the mental fog caused by high testosterone anymore.
I used to not be able to focus because of constant flashbacks from autopsy videos I had watched. The horror as they raked her guts out etc.
That was because my testosterone levels coupled with a complete lack of female interaction where leading to madness.
Since my sex drive has decreased due to age, I have found myself able to think about career options now, but in my mid teens to mid 20s, I was just obsessed with sex to the point where I had to masturbate several times a day to have any focus.
(12-20-2018 12:39 PM)Jetset Wrote: BentCock, I'll post here because there's literally no chance you are not still reading this:
People have pointed out that you seem narcissistic, and this thread is more evidence.
First, that you would think the details of your sexless past are so important or interesting that you would waste the time to write them or waste our time trying to get us to read them, and even describe us as "lucky" that you posted it here because you actually think it matters.
Second, that, putting aside how bizarre and frightening it is, you still fixate on this insane corpse fetish solution that requires other people to accommodate you instead of you putting in the work.
You admit that your antisocial persona was bullshit that hurt you, but you need to take responsibility for yourself here. Good luck, find a psychologist, and try not to create another account, because you're just really weird and like everyone else, we want you to take that shit elsewhere.
I am NOT a narcissist.
I have taken this narcissim test I found online
https://psychcentral.com/quizzes/narciss...lity-quiz/ and scored 4, way below average. I am a modest person, but I have suffered in silence until it has all boiled over and I need to get it off my chest.
You are only seeing a very small part of my personality through this thread.
My life has been a life of pent up frustration, confusion, some procrastination on my part but mostly missed opportunities.
My antisocial persona was borne as a result of fear of rejection due to early and limited social experiences. It was just defense mechanism.
The part about you people being lucky for me to post was a joke you dummy. I get angry when I am misunderstood.
Fuck a psychologist, do you think in this feminist society they are going to take my complaints of "lack of female intimacy" seriously. They will probably try to tell me that it is "completely normal" that people are incels.
It's not the now I'm really worried about, I can take action now, but it's the past that I can never get back. I can't get my youth back.
2006-2015 (16-25) should have been the time when I was approaching, not when I am knocking on 30.
By the way, the moderator that keeps banning me is ignorant as hell. This is therapy for me.
I will take down this forum if it continues.
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