I never like to pregame because I can't think of a time where I've scored by doing it, but I'm in such a crappy mood right now that I'm going to have a whiskey and beer before I head to the club.
I'm scoring a lot lately, but I feel like I've been falling behind on general things like exercise, guitar practice.. super lazy and depressed lately. I keep on thinking about mortality, how my life is slipping away and how my parents are getting old, and how it sometimes feels like I'm slipping off a cliff. Did smoke some weed on Wednesday and that stuff can be depressing- I think it gives me panic attacks.
This week, I'm going to make an effort to get back into a more invigorating schedule. That said, I'm having trouble squaring getting as much pussy as I am- 8 new bangs since 2013 (most for me in Jan) with my lazy vibe. Maybe it has to do with the fact that I'm constantly reading about game and running online game and working through a huge pipeline of numbers I've accumulated.
Gonna head over to the funny animals and funny videos threads now..
(02-03-2013 01:01 AM)GenJx Wrote: soups on track for 100 bangs this year but hes feeling depressed. is there a lesson there
The lesson is that game is great and will get you pussy and can change things, but I'm a prism of feelings, and I experience all parts of life, not just the good parts.
I'm at a point where the second I get my first thrust in, I'm immediately thinking about how I can get another bang that night. I'm totally addicted to this game. In a way it's good because it deters oneitis and taking girls beauty too seriously.
Honestly, my game has surpassed caring too much about beauty. I'm not waiting for some beautiful girl to solve all my problems. Yes, we can hang and have fun, but there are millions and millions of beautiful or fuckable girls in NYC. Each one's got a better ass than the next.
I always feel like I'm missing out- there's some pussy out there that I could be fucking who isn't this girl I'm inside of right now. Maybe I haven't found the hottest girls.
I'm curious to see what happens when I start getting with a lot more attractive girls. Maybe I will get oneitis.
At this point, I don't really trust anything except for game and guitar.
More than anything else it has done, game has opened my eyes. I can see tingles from a mile a way. I can see beta qualities in guys that I used to think were total alpha and visa versa. It's added a great deal of meaning to interactions that used to baffle me.
I cab see myself more clearly reflected in the gaze of people who are talking to me.
There is so much bullshit in our culture- needless things that guys do because, deep in their subconscious, they believe it is going to get them their dream girl.
There is no dream girl. She's dead. I see all women mostly as animals who are deranged and drunk off of a cocktail consisting of skewered biological timeline and feminist crack. A femtini.
(02-03-2013 01:28 AM)soup Wrote: I always feel like I'm missing out- there's some pussy out there that I could be fucking who isn't this girl I'm inside of right now. Maybe I haven't found the hottest girls.
Do you ever think there could be more to life than just "the Matrix" of social interactions?
Just by seeing how a wide variety of men older than me have lived through life, I feel that a lot of men need to feel like they are accomplishing something in order to feel whole. I am sure that's why most of them moved onto new projects after retiring, or gave off this feeling of being empty when they had reached the point where they felt they had nothing more to bring to the world. Maybe you have reached the point of diminishing returns in game, and so now you feel like there is nothing else to accomplish beyond the point you reached.
Maybe you need to find a passion beyond game.
I am just throwing my thoughts out here though. I realize you have many years of experience beyond mine, so maybe they won't be able to provide much perspective.
Either way soup, I hope you find what you are looking for in life. I will say, one of the greatest ironies in life is that what people truly desire is almost always separate what they think they desire. It is amazing how culture, and conscious thought can obfuscate things.
(02-03-2013 01:28 AM)soup Wrote: I always feel like I'm missing out- there's some pussy out there that I could be fucking who isn't this girl I'm inside of right now. Maybe I haven't found the hottest girls.
Do you ever think there could be more to life than just "the Matrix" of social interactions?
Just by seeing how a wide variety of men older than me have lived through life, I feel that a lot of men need to feel like they are accomplishing something in order to feel whole. I am sure that's why most of them moved onto new projects after retiring, or gave off this feeling of being empty when they had reached the point where they felt they had nothing more to bring to the world. Maybe you have reached the point of diminishing returns in game, and so now you feel like there is nothing else to accomplish beyond the point you reached.
Maybe you need to find a passion beyond game.
I am just throwing my thoughts out here though. I realize you have many years of experience beyond mine, so maybe they won't be able to provide much perspective.
Either way soup, I hope you find what you are looking for in life. I will say, one of the greatest ironies in life is that what people truly desire is almost always separate what they think they desire. It is amazing how culture, and conscious thought can obfuscate things.
No. I believe that all human meaning derives from social interaction.
And, no, I don't believe I've reached a point of diminishing returns. I'd bet good money that there are guys out there more and higher quality women than I.
My perspective is that I'm more of an intermediate.
I think the American obesity problem will come to an end around The early 2020's.
It might seem as if I am extrapolating here but hear me out.
1) Obesity in U.S is at an all time high, we all know it and with everything else not favorable to a civilization it will dissapear.
I think by the Early 2020's there would be a serious amount of skinny/thin youg females coming into the dating pool.
Here is why:
There are more and more programs,shows, health related ads and campaign getting created to prevent obesity. I don't think there is a country out there that has more data on obesity and it's effects than the U.S. So much information about staying healthy is put out there that the kids that are 8,9 and 10 years old today will grow up with a totally different view.
It' s true that fat acceptance is popular today but just like everything popular and useless, with time it will die out.
The 2020's might be a pussy paradise in The U.S with thin females and a shitload of betas, a little bit like Japan.
The problem is that they will be thin but not necessarily feminine.
(02-03-2013 09:03 AM)le prince perdu Wrote: I think the American obesity problem will come to an end around The early 2020's.
It might seem as if I am extrapolating here but hear me out.
1) Obesity in U.S is at an all time high, we all know it and with everything else not favorable to a civilization it will dissapear.
I think by the Early 2020's there would be a serious amount of skinny/thin youg females coming into the dating pool.
Here is why:
There are more and more programs,shows, health related ads and campaign getting created to prevent obesity. I don't think there is a country out there that has more data on obesity and it's effects than the U.S. So much information about staying healthy is put out there that the kids that are 8,9 and 10 years old today will grow up with a totally different view.
It' s true that fat acceptance is popular today but just like everything popular and useless, with time it will die out.
The 2020's might be a pussy paradise in The U.S with thin females and a shitload of betas, a little bit like Japan.
The problem is that they will be thin but not necessarily feminine.
Let's hope so. But, the reason we have all that data is that we have a huge problem.
What might happen is that a generation of obese are going to die en masse from health related issues. Then we might see a systemic change.
Been a few nights with heated discussions between friends. One of them is a classic beta(if we're still allowed to use that word), he gets oneitis with girls he hasn't slept with, he cockblocks his friends, and he calls me a chauvinist all the time. Which shows my I'm doing something good.
When I said that women only have 10% of their eggs left when they're 30 he just gave me a cringy face. Love it.
Too bad really. Best friends a few years ago. I evolved , he didn't.
“This is why we shouldn't be afraid. There are two possibilities: One is that there's more to life than the physical life, that our souls "will find an even higher place to dwell" when this life is over. If that's true, there's no reason to fear failure or death. The other possibility is that this life is all there is. And if that's true, then we have to really live it - we have to take it for everything it has and "die enormous" instead of "living dormant," as I said way back on "Can I Live." Either way, fear is a waste of time.”
Probably inspired by this quote from Marcus Aurelius:
“Live a good life. If there are gods and they are just, then they will not care how devout you have been, but will welcome you based on the virtues you have lived by. If there are gods, but unjust, then you should not want to worship them. If there are no gods, then you will be gone, but will have lived a noble life that will live on in the memories of your loved ones.”
Some sexy chick messaged me that she's coming back to my city after having left for two months, which is interesting since I never even banged her and only met her briefly.
I do believe I am going to give her that "good dick."