Post: #1

Let's keep it honest. Dreams are ok, and they are often reflections of our subconscious. I'll go first.

I had a dream the other night about my female best friend from grade school. It was awkward: I was essentially presented with a choice by God (that's who I take it to be)... I had two girls in front of me, a really hot brunette and the passable blonde... my childhood friend.

It created a storm of emotions in me. I was forced to confront everything I knew, and thought to know. Ironically, I chose my friend. The passable blonde. She had a really good personality and was ironically very happy (as she is in real life). I keep thinking of an ideal woman, and then I have this dream, and I think, "shit my childhood friend is the ideal woman." As I type this, I realize I should have shown some interest in her. I think she was into me. We parted ways in middle school, but somehow we ended up at the same college. Needless to say, I saw her caring instinct-- and it was directed at me, although i didn't realize it at the time. She is dating a real jerk (I don't know how to put it) who is a loser, as opposed to me.

I try not to read into things but this whole thing definitely sticks. I still remember her from Kindergarten and having lunch with her every day, and talking about everything. This is really weird.... She was my second-best friend...

I haven't talked to her in about 4 years, but can't help thinking that she was a great girl. We went to the same uni and now I notice her interest.

I'm all about saying, "fuck oneitis", but this episode is definitely stirring up a lot of subconscious memories...

This is something I think I've kept repressed for a long time. I understand the discrepancy between real women and my ideal woman now. It feels like a major breakthrough, actually. This girl was not perfect, but everything that I wanted. Namely, honesty, grace, and intelligence. I've been having a mental block with girls recently, but it all makes sense now.

I don't know how else to describe my thoughts, but I would appreciate input....

She was attractive but ironically i haven't had that many sexual thoughts about her ever, even though she is attractive.... What does it mean?

I know we talk a lot about the alpha/beta dichotomy, but i take this dream to mean that I want an average girl that cares about me in a deep way, rather than a superficial hot chick. That's my subconscious speaking. I haven't had a better experience with a girl to date, but have no clue what that means. I'm still really young.

edit: so I did a quick search and she's marrying the guy i mentioned. Not surprised, but she shot low. Shit.

Post: #2

I'm looking at the photos of her and BF, and I'm disgusted. I never recognized the signs, and some dipshit autist motherfucker will get married to her. Not an alpha by any means. Fucking disgusting. 23 years old and marrying a Sperg...

Post: #3

(03-23-2019 09:14 PM)Heuristics Wrote:  This is something I think I've kept repressed for a long time. I understand the discrepancy between real women and my ideal woman now. It feels like a major breakthrough, actually. This girl was not perfect, but everything that I wanted. Namely, honesty, grace, and intelligence. I've been having a mental block with girls recently, but it all makes sense now.

I don't know how else to describe my thoughts, but I would appreciate input....

She was attractive but ironically i haven't had that many sexual thoughts about her ever, even though she is attractive.... What does it mean?

I know we talk a lot about the alpha/beta dichotomy, but i take this dream to mean that I want an average girl that cares about me in a deep way, rather than a superficial hot chick. That's my subconscious speaking. I haven't had a better experience with a girl to date, but have no clue what that means. I'm still really young.

edit: so I did a quick search and she's marrying the guy i mentioned. Not surprised, but she shot low. Shit.

It kinda sounds like what you really want is a very Incan latina if you want an honest girl that takes care of you, but grace is something you'd have to teach. Intelligence or teachability is something you would have to screen for. There's some cultural shit you'd have to watch out for like a pathological fear of the mildest cold.

(03-23-2019 10:38 PM)Heuristics Wrote:  I'm looking at the photos of her and BF, and I'm disgusted. I never recognized the signs, and some dipshit autist motherfucker will get married to her. Not an alpha by any means. Fucking disgusting. 23 years old and marrying a Sperg...

Girls make bad decisions all the time. When a girl has a lot of time to weigh a guy's value seemingly "deep" connections mean friend zone. The right sort of asshole indifference on the other hand inspires girl's love and it can discount all sorts of external indicators that the dude is a loser.

Have you tried meditation?

Post: #4

Don't be haunted by the one that got away for the rest of your life.

Get good, and get a much better girl to fill your dreams and thoughts with.

Post: #5

If she was your best friend, why did you suddenly stop communicating?

Post: #6

What happened that you drifted away from each other?

Have you tried reaching out to her?

Post: #7

I'm not completely crushed but I realize my thoughts had been repressed.

We were both very competitive. I was better than her of course but she got the nod because she was a girl. Often we competed against each other in school. And then in uni.

Why did we stop communicating? well the first time would be moving away. Even though I moved back in grade school. Then I moved away permanently and then our paths crossed only a few times.

We ended up at the same college by chance --the most elite people at our secondary schools. In hindsight she showed a very keen interest in me but at the time wasnt interested. At the time I was very shallow and was doing a bad job noticing interest from girls and forming male friendships as well. Final nail in the coffin was her hanging out with this sperg cosplay type, and I said shit, fuck that guy.

I have not spoken I estimate in 2 or 3 years, maybe once. Before that last time i saw her was college b4 cutting contact with her. I haven't tried reestablishing contact bc shes getting married.

Post: #8

I have had a similar experience with one particular girl reappearing in my dreams over a number of years. I can't figure it out.

I read plenty of articles about dream analysis and the best answer I got was that my mind was remembering a similar experience in the past that I was experiencing in the present.

So I was processing my current experiences using memories of similar experiences that were locked away in my mind that were only resurfacing when I was dreaming.