Post: #1

I have been a creeper on this forum for a while but the knowledge and confidence that I have gained simply by reading the threads has changed my life.
The honest and encouraging vibe on this forum is too be commended.
A little about myself...
I always viewed myself as that typical racial minority sidekick who made people laugh but was kind of just there. I always believed that girls never took me seriously and my only purpose in social settings was for comic relief (Jackie Chan in Shanghai Noon for example). However, upon finding "the red pill" and reading ROK and RVF extensively, i started lifting(entering a PL meet soon), sharpened up my threads and started going out with intentions. However, these improvements were inconsequential compared to the self-worth that I gained upon implementing the ideas of red pill.
I started off with tinder got a few bangs, started going out more with a few hits and travelling. Hell, I even have a brunette broad who drives me to college 3 times per week.
I used to be the guy who went out with his buddies and laughed and belittled the one dude in our group who tried to talk to girls or pick up. In reality we were all just insecure pussies who wanted to see him fail... Fuck that guy

However my problem is that the more girls I manage to add to my count, the more disallusioned I become with the lifestyle. Is it beta to want to form a meaningful relationship with women? Even the ones that stick around I get bored of, it feels like the hunt is over. This is a strange paradox that I can't quite understand. Any insight would be great....

But all in all thanks guys.

Post: #2

If you don't want to feel empty don't hang out with sluts.

Whoever you spend the most time with is a reflection of who you are.

Post: #3

(09-04-2015 12:28 PM)Mattius Wrote:  However my problem is that the more girls I manage to add to my count, the more disallusioned I become with the lifestyle. Is it beta to want to form a meaningful relationship with women? Even the ones that stick around I get bored of, it feels like the hunt is over. This is a strange paradox that I can't quite understand. Any insight would be great....

But all in all thanks guys.

Be careful that it is not your laziness speaking here, wanting to settle down and stop working so hard.

Post: #4

your conditioning is clashing with your experience. as in "do not believe your lying eyes"

keep going at it and in a while you will get to internalize the experience as your new conditioning. at that time you will get to the state you think you are getting to now